letsnotmakeittoo22
I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
- Nov 24, 2024
- 43
I have my basic set up and basic ideas for locations in mind ( partial ) after my last attempt I was hospitalized and not treated the best. I'm terrified that if I back out, and have any sort of lasting damage, that I'll be sent back. I really want to make my next attempt unknown and the last.
I just have no courage anymore. The last attempt has spooked me. I still am quite determined to CTB, but I just can't stop chickening out.
I cry to myself until I'm tired most nights. With the only thought of reassurance being " ill do it tomorrow "
I keep testing my set up and getting quite close. It's not even just SI kicking in. It's just me being weak.
But I can't keep doing this loop. I can't.
Please. Please. Help me. Any tips? Im thinking if when I get a bottle of vodka, getting drunk, taking some pregabalin, or my lorazepam if I refill my script before I do go. I seen a really sad video, but it made me realize that partial as method especially with alcohol and pills as a precursor, can be quite quick.
How do I just. Do it?
I just have no courage anymore. The last attempt has spooked me. I still am quite determined to CTB, but I just can't stop chickening out.
I cry to myself until I'm tired most nights. With the only thought of reassurance being " ill do it tomorrow "
I keep testing my set up and getting quite close. It's not even just SI kicking in. It's just me being weak.
But I can't keep doing this loop. I can't.
Please. Please. Help me. Any tips? Im thinking if when I get a bottle of vodka, getting drunk, taking some pregabalin, or my lorazepam if I refill my script before I do go. I seen a really sad video, but it made me realize that partial as method especially with alcohol and pills as a precursor, can be quite quick.
How do I just. Do it?
