How to cope before your ctb date

[Sixfeetunder]

I was going to try and recover. It's only been about 2 weeks but I've realized that I want to ctb. I'm thinking of doing in May after the semester ends but before Memorial Day. So I'll hopefully have less than 2 months left. Does anyone have any advice on how to get through these next 2 months?

 

[Jodes]

Sorry for being stupid. Why after the semester ends and before Memorial Day? And what's happening in between?

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Sorry for being stupid. Why after the semester ends and before Memorial Day? And what's happening in between?

After the semester ends so that if I somehow fail, I won't also fail classes. I am hoping to do it before Memorial Day because it gets busy at my work after Memorial Day and I don't want to feel obligated to go to work. Yes it's just work, but I could see some guilt stopping me during busy season.

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

I'm planning on killing myself in may too. I'll keep myself distracted until then with video games and tv and the internet same as I've always done

 

[Jodes]

In that case, I'd say enjoy it like it's your last days on earth, but responsibly. And by responsibly, I mean that it's your last resort, that you have saught good and multiple medical treatments, that you really have researched the method, that you have considered all other options, and that you always leave the chance of aborting - and that you have considered that this is not the complete list!!!

 

[Sixfeetunder]

In that case, I'd say enjoy it like it's your last days on earth, but responsibly. And by responsibly, I mean that it's your last resort, that you have saught good and multiple medical treatments, that you really have researched the method, that you have considered all other options, and that you always leave the chance of aborting - and that you have considered that this is not the complete list!!!

I've gotten so much help for it. It only helped me function more and hide it better.

 

[Jodes]

I've gotten so much help for it. It only helped me function more and hide it better.

What did you used to enjoy? Can you still do them?

 

[Redt2go]

Does anyone have any advice on how to get through these next 2 months?

Spend time with people, gets you out of your head.... careful though might make you reconsider ctb

 

[Sixfeetunder]

What did you used to enjoy? Can you still do them?

I don't enjoy anything enough to justify this BS we call life.

 

[fisil]

Why not just ctb before? Why wait 2 months? I am looking forward getting my N and god hopefully i am ready to die. I have all the stuff for SN, but just want take the best and most peacefull way.

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Why not just ctb before? Why wait 2 months? I am looking forward getting my N and god hopefully i am ready to die. I have all the stuff for SN, but just want take the best and most peacefull way.

Read my previous replies. I explain it then.

 

[Jodes]

I'm looking forward to going peacefully soon myself. What specifically is it about the wait that's frustrating you?

 

[TAW122]

Even though I'm not actively looking to ctb atm, I'll answer from the times I was close to ending it. What I did was I prepared my mind to accept a mentality like "this is it, whatever happens, happens.. If things suck, then I'll just do xyz and then no longer exist, no more conscious." I also imagined what it is like to fall asleep, but instead it would be eternal sleep, devoid of any form of conscious or perception of anything. As for fearing an afterlife, well it's not a problem for me as I'm an atheist (though I could see it being problematic for theists or those who believe in a god and/or afterlife).

 

[Cookiedough8956]

What I'm gonna do is at least get to "enjoy" some things (even if I don't feel like doing anything), just so i don't get hit hard with my regrets.

Honestly, I'm prob just gonnn treat everyday as is- and when it comes to CTB, I'll just do it.

 

[Jodes]

Even though I'm not actively looking to ctb atm, I'll answer from the times I was close to ending it. What I did was I prepared my mind to accept a mentality like "this is it, whatever happens, happens.. If things suck, then I'll just do xyz and then no longer exist, no more conscious." I also imagined what it is like to fall asleep, but instead it would be eternal sleep, devoid of any form of conscious or perception of anything. As for fearing an afterlife, well it's not a problem for me as I'm an atheist (though I could see it being problematic for theists or those who believe in a god and/or afterlife).

I LOVE that.

Imagine what it's like to "sleep". That can take the mind a lot of places better than this world

Dissociation & distraction is the only fucking way to live

 

[uiop]

Find something to distract you, anything. The way I cope with my reality is through drugs and my day job.

 

[Lara Francis]

I was going to try and recover. It's only been about 2 weeks but I've realized that I want to ctb. I'm thinking of doing in May after the semester ends but before Memorial Day. So I'll hopefully have less than 2 months left. Does anyone have any advice on how to get through these next 2 months?

Make and cross off things on a bucket list.
I would spend all my money because u cant take it with u.!