How to calm post attempt anxiety / nerves

[0000000]

I am going to be CTB very soon.
I am " blessed " in a way that I do not have any friends or family who will miss me / be grieving for me afterwards. That fact alone lifts a huge weight off my shoulders.
I am feeling anxious leading up to my plan to CTB (partial hanging).
I keep crying / making myself sick with nerves.
Does anyone have any advice on how to calm my anxiety down (most likely SI induced anxiety - ex: sweating , nightmares, shakes, crying fits insomnia etc.)
I can't eat, I can't sleep, and when I get to sleep I sleep for 10+ hours. Any advice would be welcomed.

 

[Forveleth]

Do not force yourself to make an attempt. It sounds like you are panicking over it and you are not ready. Suicide is not something that should be rushed or forced. The best chance of success is when both parts of your brain are in agreement on the decision.

 

[fitoo5999]

Do not force yourself to make an attempt. It sounds like you are panicking over it and you are not ready. Suicide is not something that should be rushed or forced. The best chance of success is when both parts of your brain are in agreement on the decision.

No right. So many suicidal people are not right with the decision but still have to do it.