How often do you fantasize about CTB?

[John Smith]

Daily? Multiple times a day? Also how much do you ruminate over the planning aspect of it?

 

[Hunter]

The planning has been done for months. I think about it all day every day. It's no way to live.

 

[Nanako]

I pretty much dedicate all my time now to figuring out how I'll go about this...

 

[TheCrow]

The planning has been done for months. I think about it all day every day. It's no way to live.

What is your method, if you don't mind my asking?

 

[Hunter]

What is your method, if you don't mind my asking?

N

 

[TheCrow]

I think about it every day, the planning is pretty much done. I do worry about my maintenance man (who brings my mail up to my door) being nosy about my heavy package (nitrogen) and/or my dad being around when it gets delivered. I found that it can be delivered next day for an INSANE price, but it might be worth it to know exactly what day it's arriving (also, won't be around for the bill, so...).

 

[TheCrow]

N

Oooh! Lucky you! Congratulations, and I'm jealous! Oooh, that is going to work out nicely. Good for you.

 

[Going Home]

Lately I don't think about it as much as I fantasize choking out the gorilla looking women harassing me.

 

[TheCrow]

Lately I don't think about it as much as I fantasize choking out the gorilla looking women harassing me.

Damn! I'm sorry to hear that. Where is this taking place?

 

[bigj75]

every second

 

[Smilla]

All day, everyday, and in my dreams

 

[Going Home]

Damn! I'm sorry to hear that. Where is this taking place?

I'm sick of these animalistic stalking people. It happens in the town where I live.

 

[TheCrow]

I'm sick of these animalistic stalking people. It happens in the town where I live.

Ugh. Like, small town, people up in your business type shit?

 

[wanttodie]

All day, everyday,

 

[cap]

At least once a day

 

[IRIYAMA]

Daily thoughts of ctb for the most part, it's really dependent on how many symptoms and flare ups I get during the day, or in some cases of night waking me up..
I have everything planned and can go on a minutes notice, it's just so difficult with elderly parents who are not in good health, knowing the ctb will affect them more than if they were younger and more resilient...

 

[therhydler]

All day, everyday, and in my dreams

 

[EndofMyRope]

How many seconds are there in a day???

 

[Empty Smile]

I think it when I wake up. I think it all through the day. I think it when I lay down in bed at night. Sometimes I think it in my dreams.

 

[Didymus]

The whole day. I go to bed early to escape in dreams, but I wake up 4 times a night and then immediately think how misearable my life is.

 

[Going Home]

Ugh. Like, small town, people up in your business type shit?

I moved. I no longer live in a small town and the harassment is still going on.

 

[TheCrow]

I moved. I no longer live in a small town and the harassment is still going on.

Jesus. Do you mind me asking what started this all? I am so sorry. That must be so stressful.

 

[Going Home]

Jesus. Do you mind me asking what started this all? I am so sorry. That must be so stressful.

I dont know. No one ever confronted me just nasty harassment. It makes me not want to live.

 

[Pegasus]

Multiple times a day.

 

[broken._.]

evry single second of every single day for 3+ years..... im going to make it happen I have a plan

 

[wildisthewind]

Multiple times a day, even when I have zero urge to act on it. It sort of goes with the territory when you have Borderline Personality Disorder.

 

[TheCrow]

I dont know. No one ever confronted me just nasty harassment. It makes me not want to live.

Wtf?! That's terrible. I'm so sorry. You don't deserve that.

 

[sólstafir]

Every day, John, every day

 

[Tncfef]

Everyday i become more determined to kill myself. One day this determination will overcome my fear.And that day is gonna be my last day.

 

[Kill Bill]

Everyday