If you want to ctb due to an illness how much treatment have you already tried. I tried a lot. However some of my problems cannot be solved by that and other parts of my illness are treatment resistant. I am quite desperate.
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):I have treatment resistant mental illness. Gone through CBT, Electroshock therapy, and over 20 different medications both FDA approved and clinical trials. I stopped doing all of that over 10 years ago and feel I have more control of my destiny than when I was on medication where everything seemed out of reach or spinning.
Largeletters
Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
- 640
I have been through 8 psych hospitalizations, 4 medications, and several therapists since the age of 4. Like the first option of the poll says, I've tried almost everything and am very desperate. I don't believe treatment will help me, and at this point the only thing that will help me is taking my life. That is my only solution.
imaloserbaby
Karolina
- Jan 28, 2021
- 25
Wow, that's really similar to my story! I'm at the point right now where I'm considering stopping all of it. There's always "one more med you haven't tried" but then...if 25 didn't work, is there really that much chance the 26th will? Everyone around me sees it as giving up but I see it more like you said, having control of your destiny. Not to mention that the more treatments that fail, the worse I feel, like it's my fault. So maybe the answer is to just accept that this is who I am and then see what happens from there.
Yeah, my current doctor passed along that I was a candidate for Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation or trying another SSRI-Extended drug that he claimed was more effective than the standard SSRIs. I asked for some research papers on the TMS thing and might try that in the future. I am done with being a test lab subject for big pharma.
LostSoul1609
Experienced
- Mar 9, 2021
- 245
Tried many antidepressants and benzos.
Yes they work but they are mostly palliates, they won't solve the problem (surprise surprise).
I advice people who are confused about them to try them and see. They definitely work for some stuff, but again, a pill won't make you want to pursue a life that is terrible in a terrible place, most they can do is making your sleep better and lessen anxiety.
Callie Arcale
It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
- Feb 10, 2021
- 853
Seen many, many, many doctors and tried everything they prescribed. Nothing works. The only cure for my health problems would be a miracle at this point (or death to put me out of my misery).
littlelungs
Wizard
- Oct 21, 2018
- 646
I honestly can't remember a time in the past 20 years or so where I haven't been in treatment in some form or another.
I've been through the wringer in the healthcare system because it seems that literally nobody knows what to do with me. I've honest-to-god tried everything that I possibly can that is even remotely accessible... but all of the strain associated with just about every single last treatment, coping method and otherwise that I've tried, has just made my physical condition exponentially worse in the long run. That's just the nature of the chronic illness and pain that I have – damned if I do and damned if I don't.
I'm still trying, but it's more or less just self-directed palliative care at this point. I'm both desperate and tired. It's just so incredibly hard to be optimistic when both my body and mind seem to be not only unresponsive to treatment, but actively working against me, no matter what I do.
Largeletters
Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
- 640
I understand. I'm sorry, it's very painful (physically and emotionally).
Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,873
Dipped my toes in. Was prescribed prozac and took it for a couple of weeks, didn't seem to really help and I wasn't happy with the side effects, so I stopped it. Saw a psychiatrist once, that was beyond awful, never again.Attended some anxiety workshops which did nothing as well.
Foogs
Give me your blood
- Jun 22, 2021
- 64
Recently started progesterone and testosterone therapy, had a deep tissue massage and physical therapy and chiropractic just today, upping my klonopin script monday, getting trigger point injections and a psychotherapy session tuesday, PT again wednesday, I never stop!
I even eat healthy, don't drink any alcohol or caffeine, and drink lots of water. I'm really doing my best to not have to CTB Last edited:
The Lonely
Arcanist
- Jan 26, 2021
- 406
What a question!!! I will assume it counts "alternative therapies"???
Because beyond Psychiatrists and Psychologist. There was:
- The Iris reader
- The Florals
- Reiki therapy
- Other Lives/spirits Therapy
- Therapy to remove "dots" at the body
- Hipnoses
- Dream therapy
- The guy who incorporates a dead german doctor spirit
(And I must be forgetting "something")…Last edited:
Alwaysbadtime
Enlightened
- Jun 28, 2021
- 1,157
I realized that if my situation is total shit with no opportunity to improve then it's not 'treatment resistant depression' or anything. I don't even think I'm depressed. I think I have anxiety due 100 percent due to my situation.
I've been labeled, misdiagnosed and judged by 'professionals' family and SO. My existence sucks shit. No conversation with someone with retirement and benefits will resolve my issue. There are a fuckton of seemingly normal educated folks out of a job, can't get a job...offered minimum wage and having a masters in engineering.
I refuse to make myself worse believing that my problems...or situation is due to illness. Just bad choices and no real good options.
I know of someone....lives...stuck in an abusive home who says they have all sorts of disorders...and treatment resistant depression. I think they are just stuck and very unhappy for good reason.
I don't know if this helps. Probably nothing helps...Nothing does. I've gone to therapists...psychatrists...nurse practitioners and PAs. The only good it ever did was give me meds to calm down and sleep.
People talk about PTSD. Well my stress is never post...so it's just SD I guess and NO ONE I go to for care will give me meds for relief. Take care. I don't mean to disqualify disorders. I am just saying for me....I know my life just fucking sucks and I don't want to believe some disorder to explain why I am pissed, don't have anything to say and feel hopeless. Really- what conversations do people have to get such and such diagnosis? Yes, there are serious mental disorders. I don't have one/any. I have a life disorder or problem.
suffocatingseraphim
⸙𖦹killing the self as to protect it from harm𖦹⸙
- Feb 6, 2020
- 106
I've tried so many damn things in my life, albeit being young (20) there's a fuck ton I've been sorting through since I was 11 or so.
I've been on over 15 different medications, gone through at least 5 or 7 therapists, done inpatient twice, tried spiritual healing and all manners of alternative medicine, meditation, mindfulness, I'm doing DBT now in therapy, but god. I'm just exhausted from it all,Similar threads
