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nooneishome

Member
Oct 7, 2024
17
Just curious how much other people have tried to recover. This is what I've tried so far:

Inpatient psychiatric hospitalization 30+ times (mostly forced, involuntary)
Residential treatment 4 times
Ketamine
TMS
A bazillion different therapists
Group therapy
DBT/CBT
Tons of PHP/IOP programs
Basically every medication ever

I guess the only thing I haven't tried is ECT and I haven't heard good things. I really do wish I could find healing but I don't see how that's possible at this point.
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
Difficult to count what is considered treatment... Information is valid for 30 years.

Inpatient psychiatric clinic for 2.5 years in a row, further very short inpatient stays, approx. 4 outpatient therapies, tried approx. 12 different medications, various psychological consultations, self-help group, group therapy, meditation, sport, alcohol, toxic relationships, self-harm, a lot of different YouTube Videos about healing, health app against depression, good friend.

Not tried: Ketamine, MAO inhibitors, electroconvulsive therapy, body therapy, mushrooms/ayahuasca/LSD, adult rehabilitation,...

The best thing was: schema therapy, self help group, Sertraline+Elvanse, mediation/YouTube, good friend.
 
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daley

Experienced
May 11, 2024
224
Here is the list of things I've tried:

  • Two psychologists ( for very short time - didn't work for me, but I think I wasn't really ready to cooperate)
  • Landmark Forum - this helped me a lot in overcoming hatred towards my father, and some concrete aspects of social anxiety.
  • Vipasna 10 day meditation retreat - didn't do much for me, but I think if you stick with practicing at home it might yield some benefits.
  • A psychiatrist - we had discussions, but I think what really helps is an SSRI, which I continue taking.
I feel pretty OK now, although I don't think I am what you could describe as normal.
 
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silentcicada

silentcicada

Silhouettes on the ceiling
Aug 2, 2023
136
Countless amounts of therapy, too many medications, and ECT.
 
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ladylazarus4

ladylazarus4

exhausted
May 12, 2024
259
Psych ward once, wilderness therapy (as a young adolescent), long-term residential as an adolescent, DBT 3 month residential, Outpatient therapy with 7 different therapists since I was 12 (CBT and DBT), with only one of those (current) being actually helpful, ketamine, TMS, and 2 types of antidepressants (but they don't do much for me). The ketamine is actually extremely helpful for me. I still get suicidal thoughts, I'm just not really that depressed. I do a ketamine infusion every 3-4 weeks.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,388
I've only recently tried to get some treatment for my anxiety. The therapist gave up after two sessions and told me to get a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist then also gave up on me after two sessions and told me only talk therapy could help me.
 
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daley

Experienced
May 11, 2024
224
I've only recently tried to get some treatment for my anxiety. The therapist gave up after two sessions and told me to get a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist then also gave up on me after two sessions and told me only talk therapy could help me.
Wow! That sucks.
Did you have them talk between so they could figure it out?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,388
Wow! That sucks.
Did you have them talk between so they could figure it out?
Neither of them appeared to be interested in that so I guess they just wanted to pass me off once they saw I wasn't easy to cure.
 
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sickdog

Member
Oct 4, 2024
12
12+ years of therapy and medications. Involuntary inpatient hospitalization when I was 12 years old. I've been on every antidepressant and mood stabilizer and antipsychotic there is it seems. I recently started the process of getting signed up for TMS. But I feel pretty much hopeless and broken. I think I'm too fucked up to ever heal.
 
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Innereye

Innereye

Know thy self
Jan 18, 2020
303
I've gotten about as much as I can from therapy. I know who I am and have a self that I can appreciate. still in ungodly amounts of pain but I've learned to own it.

I have potential treatments I'd like to try such as TMS and ECT on top of medical procedures for the numerous health issues I have.

This is pretty understated but psychedelics played a big part In my development, particularly my object relations and theory of mind.
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
1.5 years of inpatient psychiatry
1 year of partial inpatient psychiatry
5-6 outpatient therapies (last one: schema therapy)
1 group therapy (DBT)
approx. 20 different antidepressants in 30 years
1 ADHD medication
self-help group
Meditation
countless videos and reports on treatment methods for chronic depression heard
My current interest is Ayahuasca, but I can't do it yet due to health and time constraints.

The most helpful things: hospitalization as a teenager because I was away from my parents. love relationship. Support group. Meditation/listening to helpful YouTube videos. Medication. Schema therapy.
 
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Leiot

Leiot

Coming back as a cat
Oct 2, 2024
342
God knows how many meds, psych and pain
CBT/ACT
Therapy
Group Therapy
Hospitalization

Group therapy was good while it lasted but I went to a Buddhist retreat up in the mountains for a week. Really helped. :sunglasses:
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,141
List of what I've tried so far:
  • 17 years of therapy (1 psychologist, 1 psychoterapist) - CBT and EMDR
  • 3 psychiatrists (1 great, 2 horrible ones)
  • 6 weeks of Crisis Team mental health support
  • Talking Therapies service
  • 5 years total of medications (all meds: Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Risperidone, Risperdal Consta injection, Mirtrazapine, Zolpidem, Zolpiclone, Lorazepam)
  • Group therapy/psycho-drama
  • Regular exercise, walks, diet, guided meditation, etc
  • Better sleep hygiene: dark room, temperature control, pillow mist, ASMR, etc
  • Qwell, Mind website, Samaritans
  • Volunteering for a total of ~10 years (helping the elderly, teens/adults with mental health issues, feeding stray animals)
What has helped me:
  • ASMR - is my lifeline for falling asleep, dealing with sadness, loneliness, so many things
  • Zolpidem - never slept better in my whole life. On the other hand, ruined my concentration and memory forever
  • Volunteering - made me feel like I had a purpose, on the other hand, gave me a shit ton of traumatic memories to cry about and tainted my worldview forever
  • Exercise - made my body feel better but only works when I'm not severely depressed, which is almost never
  • Therapy - Helped me navigate horrible times, on the other hand, my psychologist was the only person that cared about me and was more my father than my actual father, which led to me down a path of loss when I stopped seeing him and I haven't recovered since
 
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2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,276
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List of what I've tried so far:
  • 17 years of therapy (1 psychologist, 1 psychoterapist) - CBT and EMDR
  • 3 psychiatrists (1 great, 2 horrible ones)
  • 6 weeks of Crisis Team mental health support
  • Talking Therapies service
  • 5 years total of medications (all meds: Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Risperidone, Risperdal Consta injection, Mirtrazapine, Zolpidem, Zolpiclone, Lorazepam)
  • Group therapy/psycho-drama
  • Regular exercise, walks, diet, guided meditation, etc
  • Better sleep hygiene: dark room, temperature control, pillow mist, ASMR, etc
  • Qwell, Mind website, Samaritans
  • Volunteering for a total of ~10 years (helping the elderly, teens/adults with mental health issues, feeding stray animals)
What has helped me:
  • ASMR - is my lifeline for falling asleep, dealing with sadness, loneliness, so many things
  • Zolpidem - never slept better in my whole life. On the other hand, ruined my concentration and memory forever
  • Volunteering - made me feel like I had a purpose, on the other hand, gave me a shit ton of traumatic memories to cry about and tainted my worldview forever
  • Exercise - made my body feel better but only works when I'm not severely depressed, which is almost never
  • Therapy - Helped me navigate horrible times, on the other hand, my psychologist was the only person that cared about me and was more my father than my actual father, which led to me down a path of loss when I stopped seeing him and I haven't recovered since
No DBT? That's what NICE recommend for BPD. I identify with the therapists being the only people that care. They're certainly the only ones that understand apart from some people on here.
 
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ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,141
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No DBT? That's what NICE recommend for BPD. I identify with the therapists being the only people that care. They're certainly the only ones that understand apart from some people on here.
My current psychologist recommended DBT to me so I'll try it out very soon. Not hopeful though, it's been too many years of trying and mediocre results. Really felt like giving up therapy.
 
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2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,276
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My current psychologist recommended DBT to me so I'll try it out very soon. Not hopeful though, it's been too many years of trying and mediocre results. Really felt like giving up therapy.
Don't give up hope. DBT was designed by someone who has BPD, specifically to treat DBT and many people have been helped. It's REALLY hard work and you have to practice it daily but it's your best chance. It does take a long time to be good enough but well worth it. Look up Marsha Linehan if you're interested. She invented it. I'll keep my fingers crossed it helps you.
 
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ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,141
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Don't give up hope. DBT was designed by someone who has BPD, specifically to treat DBT and many people have been helped. It's REALLY hard work and you have to practice it daily but it's your best chance. It does take a long time to be good enough but well worth it. Look up Marsha Linehan if you're interested. She invented it. I'll keep my fingers crossed it helps you.
I really don't think I have BPD, my current psychologist doesn't think I have it either, he thinks I have C-PTSD which seems to fit me much better when I read about it. This is also the reason why I'm not super excited for DBT, because I don't see how it can help me but here I go trying things again... The reason I'm not continuing with EMDR is because I feel like it just made me feel way worse, just reliving traumatic memories over and over.
Thank you for the well wishes and for taking an interest in my case 🫂

Have you tried any treatment? I hope there's some options left for you.
Don't need to share if you don't feel like it of course 🫂
 
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2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,276
I really don't think I have BPD, my current psychologist doesn't think I have it either, he thinks I have C-PTSD which seems to fit me much better when I read about it. This is also the reason why I'm not super excited for DBT, because I don't see how it can help me but here I go trying things again... The reason I'm not continuing with EMDR is because I feel like it just made me feel way worse, just reliving traumatic memories over and over.
Thank you for the well wishes and for taking an interest in my case 🫂

Have you tried any treatment? I hope there's some options left for you.
Don't need to share if you don't feel like it of course 🫂
I've just done a bit of DBT as part of emotional first aid ready for my psychotherapy. I believe we'll be doing Gestalt therapy and some other trauma therapy I can't remember the name of. I did do some Silver Cloud online CBT while I was on the waiting list for many months, which didn't do much. I've got great trust and faith in my current mental health team and they like the way I try really hard at my therapies but they also know that if this doesn't work I'll Ctb. Ive only sought and had help for a year because I toughed it out thru all sorts of horrible life experiences but a year ago I had a breakdown and all the accumulated problems came out. This year I've discovered I am autistic, and have GAD, BPD, PTSD so it's been a bit of a confusing and challenging time. But I can't fault the help I've had so far apart from one psychologist who pushed me so far I would have jumped out of the window if it wasn't ground floor, and a lazy ass psychiatrist who hadn't even bothered to read my notes and gave me the worst flashbacks ive ever had of past trauma. Everyone else has been brilliant altho I'm having a hard time believing I won't need to ctb in the end, but that's my breakdown talking. It removed my belief that I could get thru anything without anyone's help. Think I waited far too long trying to keep going. Incidentally the really good crisis team psychiatrist advised me not to revisit the biggest trauma in my life in case I was retraumatised so maybe that's why the EMDR didn't work for you x
 
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swankysoup

Student
Feb 12, 2024
157
I went to a psychiatric clinic at 16. They wondered why i was depressed and anxious while i was being bullied, SSRI's didn't magically fix me. I tried a bunch of meds and TMS, no use. I tried therapy too, they were nice but ignorant so couldn't get to the bottom of it all. When i was older i had to move to another clinic which was worse, they didn't believe that i was ever abused in any way and gaslit me saying i must be psychotic. So basically i was mostly damaged from the so-called help.
 
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let.me.let.go87

Meh
Jul 12, 2024
301
Just curious how much other people have tried to recover. This is what I've tried so far:

Inpatient psychiatric hospitalization 30+ times (mostly forced, involuntary)
Residential treatment 4 times
Ketamine
TMS
A bazillion different therapists
Group therapy
DBT/CBT
Tons of PHP/IOP programs
Basically every medication ever

I guess the only thing I haven't tried is ECT and I haven't heard good things. I really do wish I could find healing but I don't see how that's possible at this point.
I've done ketamine. ECT. Countless pills and cocktails. Residential treatments outpatient treatment too. I'm now on tms and a cocktail of drugs this is my last hope if it doesn't work I will leave this world behind knowing I have it my all. I even spent eight years in the state hospital. I've done everything.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,200
Talk therapy and a bunch of pills. I take a low dose prozac now and just try to look after myself as best I can (while I am still here at least).
 
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Average Joe

Forsaken One
Nov 5, 2019
377
I'm sorry that you feel as though you have exhausted your options, but there are always more options that may not seem apparent. :heart:
For me, these are the things I've tried to ease/end my suffering:

SSRIs:
  • Fluoxetine
  • Sertraline 2x (I'm on it currently again)
  • Citalopram
  • Mirtazapine
Benzos & Sleeping Pills:
  • Zopiclone
  • Promethazine
  • Circadin
  • Diazepam
  • Quetiapine
Hospital treatment:
Between 4-6 inpatient admissions to the psych unit

Therapies:
  • Group DBT
  • CBT
  • Counselling
  • Keyworker support/education on sleep hygiene, mood, the brain etc.
  • Be-friending schemes
Other?:
Meditation, mindfulness, self-care, routine & habits, religion, drugs & alcohol, self-harming, suicide attempts, exercise, employment, education.
 
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Tired_of_myself

Student
Jan 2, 2024
131
I tried therapy and meds…. Tried to exercise, meditation etc . I'm coming back to therapy next week but feels like giving up already
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,200
Do whatever you need to do to make your life comfortable while you are on this planet. Try everything first. Exhaust all options. Great advice from the folks above btw. Peace ☮️
 
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JoysoftheEmptiness

Experienced
Sep 10, 2024
233
Been in poison's unit, self poisoned myself, went anorexic, slashed myself to pieces, one month in psych unit, been on loads of meds, none of which seemed to work. Been there, done it, what's the point?
 
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idkplshelp

Mentally affected due to drugs n illness.
Oct 28, 2024
5
Decade long treatment with SSRI anxiety and psychosis meds, bipolar and ADHD meds, ECTs, total 1 year inpatient, couldn't do much therapies as my brain is totally trash. I was diagnosed with drug induced schizophrenia and OCD then.
 
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Parnate

Experienced
Dec 16, 2021
268
Just curious how much other people have tried to recover. This is what I've tried so far:

Inpatient psychiatric hospitalization 30+ times (mostly forced, involuntary)
Residential treatment 4 times
Ketamine
TMS
A bazillion different therapists
Group therapy
DBT/CBT
Tons of PHP/IOP programs
Basically every medication ever

I guess the only thing I haven't tried is ECT and I haven't heard good things. I really do wish I could find healing but I don't see how that's possible at this point.
Did you try mao inhibitors too ?
 
TheNatureOfDying

TheNatureOfDying

Princess
Nov 19, 2024
11
i tried lots of antidepressants as well as adderall to treat adhd. i tried to talk with some therapists but i didn't feel like i was making any progress. at some point a bit over a year ago i stopped taking my medication.

since then i started taking other drugs occasionally like ketamine, lsd, psilocybin. they haven't proven to be long term solutions but they usually make me feel a bit better when i take them and help me to process some of my thoughts and emotions.
 
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cloudyskye

Student
Nov 11, 2024
161
None on the books. Talked to a family friend qho was a psychologist as a young teen. Nothing since. I refuse to have any kind of paper trail that will hamper my freedoms in any way.
 

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