How many years have you wasted ?

[divinemistress36]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

 

[UninformedLover]

It feels like my whole life has been wasted.

 

[ma0]

There hasn't been a single year of my life that I can say I made any "progress" in. There's times where I felt joy, sure, but that was just me being blinded by things that didn't really matter.

So, essentially, my entire life has been a waste.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

A solid 29 years for me. And yes, I've ruminated over this many times - I didn't just do the "math" now.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

all of my years. every day wasted , . especially the last 5 years i've had SN and a shotgun and rifle , wasted every day i could've escaped this hell.

i never did anything productive or for my real goals like suicide asap.

every single minute i wasted. at least 1000 minutes every day of waking time . for 5 years do the math.

all i've done is watch youtube, social media, TV , news, media, movies, videos,all of these are addictions i picked up in childhood and want to change and instead shoot myself

that's only 1 reason i want to suicide asap to have wasted all my time , years, every minute on useless meaningless garbage ... that's horrible beyond comprehension

what does any of this trash mean anyway. nothing. nothing matters. when i think about it rationally the only thing that matters to me is avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap.

 

[divinemistress36]

all of my years. every day wasted , . especially the last 5 years i've had SN and a shotgun wasted every day i could've escaped this hell.

every single minute i wasted. at least 1000 minutes every day of waking time . for 5 years do the math.

The last 5 years have been the worst of all for me to. I wish I was back here when N was around

 

[The_screaming_dawn]

a solid 10 years whooooo

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

All of them!

 

[whitetaildeer]

Too many.

 

[charcoalcat]

Since the day I registered this account. I feel once you have suicidal thoughts you're kind of on an irreversible deteriorating path.

 

[Namelesa]

I just wonder what do we describe as wasted time? I describe wasted time as time spent on something that doesn't benefit you at all in the moment nor the future. Cus I feel like mental illness hasn't wasted my time. Its bad things happening to me that wasted time which then causes mental illness for me. Mental illness has just made these bad wasted time even more bad.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

18-31 in a couple weeks so 13 years so I missed out on my 20´s, the time older people look back upon as their best time in life and I missed it.

 

[divinemistress36]

Since the day I registered this account. I feel once you have suicidal thoughts you're kind of on an irreversible deteriorating path.

True people that have suicidal thoughts most their life usually will have always have them

 

[Forever Sleep]

I went the other way really and found my main coping mechanism in pursuing a job I wanted. However, social anxiety has held me back for as long as I can remember.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

My 20's, and now that I'm in my 30's, I feel there's no way back. All hope is gone, and I had to admit it's too late to turn things around.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Mary Janex]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

A lot but I would say, the last two years have been the worst of my entire life. I'm in a constant state of anxiety and very depressed.

 

[NovemberSin]

Most of my life. Every time I've made some progress forward I just mess things up again.

 

[allmylife]

Too many. This last year seem to be my worst waste and I hate everything about it right now.

 

[ididnotconsent]

My entire adult life. Best years of my life all gone to complete shit.

 

[The Unanswered Q]

My entire life, but especially the last five years.

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

My entire adolescence up until now. If I don't CTB soon, I'll be 30 and will be so far behind the curve where people get to at 20 that it'll be impossible to catch up.

 

[forfever]

i think the last time i was functioning as a normal person my age was 2017, then my illness spiraled out of control. but i did have some resemblance of a life up to 2023. 2023 was the last year of my life. i've been in the bus stop ever since then

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

My entire adolescence up until now. If I don't CTB soon, I'll be 30 and will be so far behind the curve where people get to at 20 that it'll be impossible to catch up.

Won't lie, it's a hell, and you feel like a failure if you haven't achieved so much, like me. The point is understanding if you can bear the sensation of losing your youth for nothing.

 

[Dark Moon]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

At least the past the past ten years I lost because of depression.

 

[Forveleth]

A large portion of my 40 years. Although I do not say I "wasted" them. They were stolen from me by depression.

 

[JJMaynard97]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

I'd say for me since my Childhood. My teenage years. I've always had something in my that's cause some mental turmoil. I'm three years of 30 and thinking back on everything I've wasted.. so like some of the others on here. My answer would be my hole life so far..

 

[Big_Eal]

How many years have you wasted cause of mental illness/chronic illness?

like 5/6 years , the "best times" around 20/30

 

[ke9]

A lot, too many. Very hard to come to terms with this. Probably never will. Live or ctb, either way they are not coming back. Kind of mourning the loss.

 

[olumlazim]

I've been in this mental problem for about 2 years now and it caused me to waste my whole life & every accomplishment. So I would say it's 19 years in total. I wish I had a normal brain.