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[catdaddy2601]

Honestly I'm so frustrated with survival instinct... Yesterday was supposed to be the day, I did appropriate fasting for stat dose SN .... made my drink, mixed it.... And couldn't drink it .. every time I brought the glass to my mouth I couldn't do it ... Is there any way I can make things a bit easier to stop survival instinct?

 

[befree]

No. I think there is no way to stop the survival instinct completely. The only ways to overcome the fear I can think of are alcohol (not with SN !), valerian und Diazepam.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

What were you thinking or feeling at that moment?

 

[Endex]

Honestly I'm so frustrated with survival instinct... Yesterday was supposed to be the day, I did appropriate fasting for stat dose SN .... made my drink, mixed it.... And couldn't drink it .. every time I brought the glass to my mouth I couldn't do it ... Is there any way I can make things a bit easier to stop survival instinct?

Feel your anguish and frustration in your text. It's a massive decision for anyone to take, you won't be the first person or the last person to not drink it. Thanks for sharing your experience and wish you all the best.

 

[Soulless Angel]

SI can be over come, you need to be in a place where you mind knows why you are doing what you are doing, and for what reasons, you need to be in your darkest place, the worst moments, the one's that make you remember why you don't wish to exist any more, this place is hard to get too, but it can be done. Doesn't take much to pull you out of it though

 

[AloneInCollege]

SI can be over come, you need to be in a place where you mind knows why you are doing what you are doing, and for what reasons, you need to be in your darkest place, the worst moments, the one's that make you remember why you don't wish to exist any more, this place is hard to get too, but it can be done. Doesn't take much to pull you out of it though

I can see why and agree for the most part, but idk, I don't want to die like that. I've spent so much time in that place. I think it's best to focus on your reasons, but more so focus on the release of tension it will bring and how the pain will stop. They say calmness is a huge warning sign of suicide, I want to go out in that calm state.

 

[Anxieyote]

Honestly I'm so frustrated with survival instinct... Yesterday was supposed to be the day, I did appropriate fasting for stat dose SN .... made my drink, mixed it.... And couldn't drink it .. every time I brought the glass to my mouth I couldn't do it ... Is there any way I can make things a bit easier to stop survival instinct?

Conversations with family members. Adds a sense of finality. I haven't used that method as a way to overcome SI, but I do know that my darkest moments have come after having failed interactions with family (little things like hearing disappointment in their voice, or receiving empty platitudes that are patronizing and unhelpful).

 

[Soulless Angel]

I can see why and agree for the most part, but idk, I don't want to die like that. I've spent so much time in that place. I think it's best to focus on your reasons, but more so focus on the release of tension it will bring and how the pain will stop. They say calmness is a huge warning sign of suicide, I want to go out in that calm state.

I guess I talk from experience literally stood on an edge, and feeling what I was feeling I was at my calmest, it was almost frightening, but at the same time I reminded myself why I was there, it was at the moment my SI went, sadly as said it can be gone so fast, hence why I am typing this today, it went due to a relatives voices coming though the dark night :(

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it can be very difficult to overcome the survival instinct as even know we want to die, we are all programmed to survive. I do not really know the answer, but I feel like many people who manage to go through with it are likely desperate to escape their lives and the pain of living has gotten unbearable for them. I think that someone cannot force themselves to feel this way, life has driven them to this point. I understand why you would be so frustrated. I know that it is so awful wanting to escape from all the suffering, yet feeling like you are unable to.

 

[london3]

Honestly I'm so frustrated with survival instinct... Yesterday was supposed to be the day, I did appropriate fasting for stat dose SN .... made my drink, mixed it.... And couldn't drink it .. every time I brought the glass to my mouth I couldn't do it ... Is there any way I can make things a bit easier to stop survival instinct?

Survival instinct is very strong in human beings.

In terms of the physical symptoms like fast heartbeat and nausea have you thought about using medicines like propranolol, metoclopramide and diazepam? These will help you feel relaxed.

Only you can know when is the time to go, but you really need to be in a calm state of mind where your intentions to die vastly overpower any negative thoughts like guilt, fear and regret. You might need to give yourself time to have a deep think and prepare for a successful outcome.

You need to keep telling yourself in your own mind that the pain will soon be over and distract yourself to not think about family etc.

Anyway i hope you find the courage to power through and always know that there is no rush and you can always change your mind.