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IWillSurvive

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This occurred to me because I know there are quite a few people who attempt suicide that don't really want to die. They are screaming for help and because they're hurting make a half ass attempt.

I also wonder what the actual death rate is of people who post here about wanting to die. Is there a buddy recommendation or rule that if you decide to finalize your decision you let them know so some kind of tracking can be made? I think that would be a good idea. This is a particular dark subject and suggestion but I'm curious how many people really don't want to die but post about it for whatever reason between a person laugh to believing they do only to realize it was a lackadaisical thought they became obsessed about.
I think I could be considered one of the "faking it" people. I have made no attempts and I am not planning on doing it any time soon. I cant ctb because I have family that I dont want to leave behind. I do think about it every day obsessively, and I do believe that there is no way where I will be able to want to stay. But since I just think about it and I have no intention of making an attempt until Im alone, I have been told that I may just be faking it or something similar.

My main reason for being here is because the few times that I feel something real tends to be around my desire to end it, so seeing conversation around it helps me get out of the numbness.

I also understand how some people may be making attempts for atention as you said, but I'm not one to glorify "pure" suicidal desire. People have different reasons why they come here, but if they got here I imagine there is something wrong enough with them that they deserve some understanding, and at least we shouldnt diminish them. I am not planning on organizing some suffering olympics.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
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Am nt goin2 typ 2 mch bcse OP = nw membr & slf typng wll b cnfusng - if sme1 cn transl8 tht wld b apprci8td

As thred ws postd in recvry sectn slf jst wn2 mke OP awre of sme of th/ ctb-survivr grps tht slf rsearchd onlne - sme r specfclly fr losng childrn t/ suicde










 
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SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
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What have they to gain from pretending, in a world of shifting sand no less?

1. "You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferreira (Victus Group)/Mark 8:36, Matthew 13:12

2. The grass withers, the flowers fade, because the breath of the Lord blows upon it;
surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. (Isaiah 40:7-8)

3.
The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)
  • Even in a community of liabilities, there is no place for a liability. (John 15:18)
Therefore, as much as I desire to live, and that a world without me would be awfully dull and grey,
this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)
 
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usernameless

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May 15, 2026
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Many people come here initially for suicide reasons but end up staying for the community. I think it's easy to sucked in, as some people have mentioned in the past, due to the validation.
 
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sinnrr-sistrr

there's a head attached to my neck and I'm *in* it
Apr 13, 2026
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I wasn't gonna add to the discussion at all but I am going to translate this post for Dot <3
Am nt goin2 typ 2 mch bcse OP = nw membr & slf typng wll b cnfusng - if sme1 cn transl8 tht wld b apprci8td

As thred ws postd in recvry sectn slf jst wn2 mke OP awre of sme of th/ ctb-survivr grps tht slf rsearchd onlne - sme r specfclly fr losng childrn t/ suicde











[Dot] isn't gonna type much because OP is a new member and [their] typing will be confusing - if someone can translate that would be appreciated (I gotchu!!)

As a(?) thread was posted in recovery section, [Dot] just wants to make OP aware of some of the ctb-surviver groups that [they] researched online - some are specifically for losing children to suicide



I think that's it. As for what I have to add, I'd say that thinking about dying is bad enough, not acting on it doesn't mean "faking" it, saying that just invalidates the suffering of people who are already often invalidated by others irl, me included.
 
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CuriousAboutThis

Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
Dec 30, 2018
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This occurred to me because I know there are quite a few people who attempt suicide that don't really want to die. They are screaming for help and because they're hurting make a half ass attempt.

I also wonder what the actual death rate is of people who post here about wanting to die. Is there a buddy recommendation or rule that if you decide to finalize your decision you let them know so some kind of tracking can be made? I think that would be a good idea. This is a particular dark subject and suggestion but I'm curious how many people really don't want to die but post about it for whatever reason between a person laugh to believing they do only to realize it was a lackadaisical thought they became obsessed about.
I can't speak for other people here but in the past I did try to find a partner on this site to try to attempt a buddy suicide how naive was I back then because the meetup is where the police ending up picking me up and sent me to a jail cell just to watch me and keep me "safe", now I don't have the scientific empirical evidence of what happened to me but the people probably put me on a watchlist or whatever.

I wouldn't recommend suicide attempts or buddy suicide attempts here if you really wanted to there are ways to commit suicide I only gone so far to attempt multiple suicide attempts, but I've also attempted murder well in my perspective I call it a justified attempt to kill my rapist the legal consequences have passed but the desire to die hasn't really gone away I just don't have the suicidal tendencies or depressive attitude which is probably good for me next month my Dad who knows the truth will supposedly meet me where I live and will tell me the whole truth well if I am lucky the whole truth about what happened to me in the past.

Just be careful if you do attempt there will be legal consequences if you fail like I have whether it be in a jail cell or a mental hospital/instituation or mental cell.

The people who got me raped if anything have won, but I made sure my rapist got what he deserved if I remember correctly I took his gun and shot him in the dick and balls the same ones he used on me so for anyone who knows what they did to me not anyone on this site but I imagine they read my data fuck you I should've died and I hope you all live a good life just so it could end horribly.

Sorry for venting within your own thread. I just needed to, but some people have it worse than me here I don't know all the circumstances all I can say is stay safe and if you choose to attempt to catch the bus whenever I do die and if there's an afterlife for I don't believe in for my own reasons I won't judge anyone here because I don't know your situation.

As an agnostic atheist I just want peace for now just peace of mind.
 
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amy joyce

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May 2, 2026
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Am nt goin2 typ 2 mch bcse OP = nw membr & slf typng wll b cnfusng - if sme1 cn transl8 tht wld b apprci8td

As thred ws postd in recvry sectn slf jst wn2 mke OP awre of sme of th/ ctb-survivr grps tht slf rsearchd onlne - sme r specfclly fr losng childrn t/ suicde
Thank you. . I've been made aware of my error as well have had some discussion about the sensitive nature of a couple of my thoughts about "faking" it. A couple of the websites I'm aware of but there always seems to be more. Much appreciated.
 
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amy joyce

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I think I could be considered one of the "faking it" people.
While I certainly think being here as a troll would be cruel and an indecent thing to do, being someone "faking it" (which isn't actually what you're doing) is not a negative thing. Although I did enter this post in the wrong forum sub group which was inconsiderate, not everything I mentioned was necessarily meant to be negative. As I explained to a few people this wasn't meant to be confrontational. I'm glad it can be a resource for people who contemplate ctb but aren't in a position to do so or who can gain support. Recognizing that you have responsibilities in life outside of yourself and are committed to following through with living to maintain them is without a doubt a commendable self sacrifice.

I've just discovered that I too have responsibilities and am needed. Although I haven't made up my mind for sure either way, I learned that instead of only being here to learn more about ctb methods and finding the courage to follow through I can use this as a resource to work on self discovery. Like not just wanted to die after losing my oldest son to ctb, I should consider my younger son and husband's feelings more and how much they need me. Although I believe I found a painless end and that most people wouldn't blame me too much for wanted to leave, I would be missed and hurt people.
 
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