how many of us here are disabled in some way?

[sweetbraid]

wondering how many others here are disabled to some extent.

 

[filthyrottendirty]

I have autism I may as well be dead

 

[sweetbraid]

I have autism I may as well be dead

oh dude : ( im also autistic. ik its really hard and i promise there IS a place in this world for people like us. probably not a place too closely entwine with capitalism or colonialism but it is there. ur autism is beautiful, i fucking promise u. ik this probably doesnt really help but i do truly believe all ive said.

 

[Werewolf.]

I'm dead inside, not sure if that counts.

 

[WatermelonMel]

I have autism I may as well be dead

Me too, my reason for CTBing.

 

[Yiyo123]

I'm also autistic (diagnosed as an adult), have major depression disorder, phycosis (sorry if I misspelled), have paranoia and high anxiety. Very hard for me to get out of my house. Life doesn't have any meaning to me. So I lost my will to live, but my wife is holding my back. And yes, i'm
considered disabled even though people tell me all the time I don't look like it.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I have autism, chronic pain, IBS, and CFS. Absolutely no way for anyone to live. Constant pain and suffering since I fell ill as a teenager. The worst part is when your disabilities are "invisible" no one takes them seriously.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Difficult breathing. Not COPD, but it will probably progress to it.
As I get tired or anxious it becomes even worse to the point I might pass out if I don't rest a bit.

 

[HappyForever?]

I'm ugly and short idk if that counts

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I have multiple disabilities and illnesses. Physically, I have a lifelong disability, CFS/ME, arthritis, IBS, post impairment syndrome, Raynaud's and chronic muscle, joint, nerve and back pain, recurring headaches, shortsightedness and other visual issues.

I suspect fibromyalgia and I fit the criteria for sleep apnoea, but I have given up acquiring a diagnosis. Healthcare services have a tendency to blame everything on my disability and avoid further investigation, despite the fact I have been correct about every condition I have so far.

In addition to the above, I have Complex PTSD, OCD, Borderline Personality Disorder, mixed depression and anxiety (caused by the PTSD in my circumstances) and a recent diagnosis of dissociative amnesia. I strongly suspect Autism and ADHD as well - they fit my experiences and would explain so much - but would need a specialist referral to diagnose these and I'm not sure if there is even any point in further 'specialist' assessments when the healthcare system has repeatedly caused such devastating harm.

Being overweight and unattractive is simply the nail in the coffin. Being disabled and ill is only made infinitely worse by having further flaws and undesirable characteristics that hinder any chance of social mobility. If you aren't already discriminated against and ostracised for being disabled and sick, you sure as hell will be if you're unattractive on top of it all.

Because who cares about a disabled, sick, fat and ugly mentally ill woman? I am regarded as utterly expendable (unless I suddenly become beautiful and healthy, which will never happen), yet also expected to be grateful for any breadcrumbs of basic dignity and decency thrown my way, as though it is altruistic to not treat me like a subhuman creature.

Having conditions that simultaneously ravage my body and my brain every second of every day is hell on earth (particularly little understood, highly stigmatised and poorly treated illnesses). Being disabled, disparaged and undesirable in this society is simply an agonising, drawn out death sentence. Not only because of the pain and suffering caused by such conditions, but also due to the additional pain and suffering inflicted by an inherently ableist and cutthroat culture that considers vulnerable citizens burdensome, disposable and a waste of resources.

 

[SuicidalAgain]

I'm autistic and finding out about it was exciting because it explained so much of my life. I didn't think of myself as disabled, but the way I simply don't fit in this society is definitely a disability.

 

[CoolGuy9]

I feel like I have some mental disability, but I have only been diagnosed with depression and ADHD so I don't know. Maybe I'm just dumb.

 

[sweetbraid]

I'm ugly and short idk if that counts

dude. no. i have sympathy for u, but no, neither of these count as being disabled in any way

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Avascular Necrosis of the hip as a result of severe alcoholism has left me wheelchair-bond and in chronic pain. And mental stuff but that list is for another day.

 

[narval]

Luckyly my asthma with medication leaves me lives a "normal" lofe. As it has a cumulative effwct, Without medication in 1-2 months i would be disabled. Checked IRL. Even walk from room to kitchen was agonic.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do have physical problems like tinnitus and visual snow. They have been worse in the past and I do not know if they count but they can be disabling. I also have autism and dyspraxia, which can explain why I have always struggled with life.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

100% bedridden and in agonizing intractable pain damn near every minute of every single day thanks to an FDA-approved antibiotic (Cipro). I'm sickened by the number of people I see on this website who are on here--and ONLY on here--because they've been harmed by pharmaceuticals. Big Harma, as I call it now.

 

[MBY85]

I have cerebral palsy and I am unabled to do things on my own. I am really unhappy and I can't ctb because my dependence of others. I feel trapped in life

 

[İnilerim]

Autism, diagnosed at 29 even though there were obvious signs all the way back to elementary school. Also some form of extreme social anxiety probably (not fully diagnosed).

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Lupus (SLE). Most of the time I would get pain, swelling and stiffness in my joints. Occasionally digestive problems would keep me up at night. On the serious side I have been hospitalised for pneumonitis and fluid retention in my ankles and feet. Every day you are forced to play Russian-roulette with an unpredictable illness, wondering what you'll be hit with next. So much fun!

 

[Voi]

Depression, anxiety and autism :(

 

[whitefeather]

wondering how many others here are disabled to some extent.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

asthma, gerd, kidney disease, schizoaffective, depression, add,