How is your day going

[eleanorhere]

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[BeansOfRequirement]

Shitty as always, hbu?

 

[91Days]

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I can't do anything. I do something then feel empty the rest of the day not being able to motivate myself to do anything else. As soon as I think about something I get an existential crisis.

 

[motel rooms]

I saw a dead cat & it made me wonder if it was a suicide

 

[91Days]

I saw a dead cat & it made me wonder if it was a suicide

Maybe it was poisoned

 

[motel rooms]

Maybe it was poisoned

Maybe it systematically annoyed someone in order to get poisoned

 

[91Days]

Maybe it systematically annoyed someone in order to get poisoned

You'd have to be a psychopath to kill a cat because it was annoying

 

[FuneralCry]

As usual, not very well. It is the same as all the other days. I just spend most of the time overthinking everything and wishing I was not here. I ended up thinking a lot about the past. It was depressing. I just exist and barely do anything. I do not enjoy eating, I have to force myself to eat and it is hard work. I am tired of existing, I just want to sleep and never wake up.

 

[motel rooms]

You'd have to be a psychopath to kill a cat because it was annoying

Plenty of psychos in my neighborhood... Mostly helpless grannies who killed their husbands & whose sleeping pills stopped working, so they scream at random kiddies & off kitties now

 

[Manaaja]

Shoulder blades hurt a lot for some reason. I have taken enough free days from exercising, it's time to start moving again. I almost fell asleep while holding a red hot pan. I hope it's spring and summer soon. I want to meet my dog again. My dog was a cute little löttänä pöttänä cuutie wuutie. I want to lift her and hold her in my arms.

 

[Hurt]

Horrible. It was good in the morning but pretty shitty now and I want to kill myself.

 

[ikadasui]

Terrible. More obligations that I don't want to deal with, work was mind numbing and painful and my mouth hurts constantly. If I had a gun I'd do it this second

 

[ScaredToLive]

Shitty, group chats are anxiety to me, and I feel like I had loads of friends and now I don't seem to have many at all. It's all just shit. I miss being 18 so badly

 

[sillybillygo]

Shitty, group chats are anxiety to me, and I feel like I had loads of friends and now I don't seem to have many at all. It's all just shit. I miss being 18 so badly

I also miss being 18. My SN arrived and I caught myself fasting but I just decided to go to work tomorrow but still won't eat just in case around 10pm tonight I don't feel bold

 

[ScaredToLive]

I also miss being 18. My SN arrived and I caught myself fasting but I just decided to go to work tomorrow but still won't eat just in case around 10pm tonight I don't feel bold

It was really good looking back, I had a lot of friends, a really fun life. Everything sucks now. It's sad, I should have died then really. I have mine too, haven't got a date. I hate getting out of bed for work but I woke helping the homeless which at least makes me feel slightly worthwhile in this shitty world

 

[greebo6]

Awful...as usual...

 

[catman]

pretty bad. dragged on forever at work. came home and now i want to off myself or distract myself, as usual

 

[Ryxn99]

The usual, I'm bored of life and lonely

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Externally, pretty well actually. Very chill and easy day people wise. Inside? How do I describe it....like it's hard breathe because I feel crowded and heavy internally. Like I literally want to run out of my own body and never come back because it feels so stifling just being awake anymore....

 

[GreenTree]

Terrible. Same every day. What a way to live. Beyond our control I think. God knows why life is like it is. All pretty fucked up this supposedly beautiful thing called life.

 

[8evergo]

monotonous as always, eat my tablets survive the bloody day wait every day for my CTB partner because i don't want to go alone

 

[irememberinnocence]

Been a hugely stressful day. Trying to calm my nervous system. Want to eat but my digestion is already overloaded. Want to watch TV but then I'll just get sucked in and neglect other stuff that needs doing. Feel horribly lonely right now. Also kind of like a pot that has its lid on but feels about to explode all its contents. That's why I tried to call the helpline just to talk. I wasn't going to tell them my CBT plans as I'm very set on those because of my quality of life. I just wanted to talk about other stuff. But they never picked up. I guess there are lots of people having mental crisis where I live. I'm having a bit of a mental crisis as I get closer to my final day. Maybe cos there's so much to organise like tying up loose ends. And of course I feel guilt. But anyhow this is just me venting. I'm worried that I'm gonna somehow confess to my plans to someone in real life. Not because I want to be saved but because I hate that I'm having to do everything so undercover. It's stressful.

 

[Miiau]

melancholic

 

[seaweaves]

Well past midnight here, I finally replied to two emails that I'd been putting off (three days, and six months, respectively). Counting it as a highlight to a low day (cn: booze) though probably only because I got drunk enough to get over my usual messaging anxieties.

 

[irememberinnocence]

Well past midnight here, I finally replied to two emails that I'd been putting off (three days, and six months, respectively). Counting it as a highlight to a low day (cn: booze) though probably only because I got drunk enough to get over my usual messaging anxieties.

I'm glad you had an achievement of sending the emails. I have email anxiety too so can relate.

 

[Wojaczek]

Just woke up from two bottles of wine and 5 beers. Hangover is weirdly mild

 

[grungeCat]

Sad and miserable. Every day feels like it's lonelier and sadder than the previous one. I'm literally hitting the shittier. I'm not in the mood to do anything but sleep. I want to escape from this life.

 

[Marktheghost]

Awful

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

Same day, same sad routine. Eternal loop.