How fucked am I?

[RacShade]

I want an honest opinion on an abridged inventory of my life and current situation so I can attempt to gauge from semi-nonbiased people if I am well and truly
Fucked

- recently discovered I am probably trans
- make very little money working not very much but still exausted all the time
- parents pay for my rent (i cover everything else) but this is a source of guilting and shaming from them
- history of suicidal ideation
- OSDD undiagnoses but I have alters
- supportive network of similar online weirdos and a handfull of friends IRL but very little ability to relate to most people
- i have a spotty resume with no real skills outside of basic IT
- one semester of college
- Live in Philadelphia so rent is insane unless i live in a dangerous area
- undiagnosed Autism and OCD
- diagnosed BPD, depression and ADHD
- self loathing due to a (at least I think) kink and intrusive unwanted sexual ane violent thoughts
- on mood stablizers that have halted my self harm (mostly)
- I have been looking for a better job for months now with no bites. Making more than 16 seems to be an impossibility
- Family generally sees me as a lazy entitled milennial and have accused me of being a sociopath (i am not)

 

[hungry_ghost]

About as fucked as you think you are, I suppose.

I always feel like younger adults have potential, as long as they make moves.

 

[Weebster]

I've tried this. No one will help you on this.

You have to decide for yourself knowing you might end up making the wrong choice.

 

[sickofbeinghere]

things can get better, i promise. the weather always changes, if you catch my drift. tomorrow wont be the same as today. i wish you well, it sounds like youve had a difficult background, but that will make it even better when things turn out positively