How do you survive living institutionalised?

[GravityUtilizer]

I live in an ostensibly dry house but I'm drunk and want to kill myself.
There is a communal shower rail that I think would take my weight but maybe not.
And I will hopefully get SN soon but if so my next door neighbour might hear me in my death throes...

 

[Lawliet]

I live in an ostensibly dry house but I'm drunk and want to kill myself.
There is a communal shower rail that I think would take my weight but maybe not.
And I will hopefully get SN soon but if so my next door neighbour might hear me in my death throes...

I was wrongfully institutionalized in my local state hospital for two months. I only survived because I was constantly being watched. I had PTSD because of it. Going back is one of the reasons I'm scared to CBT

 

[Ghost2211]

They aren't given that choice.

 

[Donewiyhitall]

I live in an ostensibly dry house but I'm drunk and want to kill myself.
There is a communal shower rail that I think would take my weight but maybe not.
And I will hopefully get SN soon but if so my next door neighbour might hear me in my death throes...

Don't trust rails or fixtures in a bathroom. Trust me!

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I'm a little confused. The title asks how one survives institutional living, but the OP is about suiciding in institutional living. I'd be glad to share about surviving such living conditions, but I think that's not what this thread is about. Am I getting that right?

 

[Donewiyhitall]

I'm a little confused. The title asks how one survives institutional living, but the OP is about suiciding in institutional living. I'd be glad to share about surviving such living conditions, but I think that's not what this thread is about. Am I getting that right?

I believe you are asking a question that is for a sober, uninstitutionalize and not-reaching out for help, person. I love and respect, your exacting post from the past and insurmountable help/info but, I believe this person is just needing to be heard.