whenlavaflows
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- Sep 21, 2020
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if you've read my other post, i had a HG of fentanyl that i'm going to be snorting to CTB. I'll also have access to about 40-50 pressed xanax bars and abut 5 7% coolers (i can get more if need too) also a ton of cannabis.
i booked my hotel for tomorrow and asked for early check in. i plan to arrive right on time so i have full advantage of time.
before i leave, i'll pack all my stuff in my backpack and have a coffee (my only current joy in my life) take 3 or 4 xanax and uber to the store to get smokes and then go to the hotel.
i'd then take more xanax and drink a cooler and see how i'm feeling. i wanted to listen to boards of canada (my favourite artist) on repeat.
i'm going to bring a new notebook and my pencil case if i do decide to write suicide letters i can. or just write down my final thoughts.
when i'm ready, i'm going to pop a few more bars 15 mins before i snort the fent. i'm planning on doing this around 4PM (this could give me 19 hours until checkout, which i'm sure would do the trick)
what would you be doing on your final day? i woke up at took4 xanax and vaped some weed. made breakfast and now drinking coffee. i was told by a user that i should fast, so my last meal will be at 4. i was planning on just getting drunk and doing blow (after i eat my last meal) to take some of this pain away and distract myself.
my agoraphobia is making it difficult to go on walks or public transit unless i uber.
nothing in life makes me happy. should i just waste away this last day by lying on my couch watching law and order?
god i fucking hate myself.
i booked my hotel for tomorrow and asked for early check in. i plan to arrive right on time so i have full advantage of time.
before i leave, i'll pack all my stuff in my backpack and have a coffee (my only current joy in my life) take 3 or 4 xanax and uber to the store to get smokes and then go to the hotel.
i'd then take more xanax and drink a cooler and see how i'm feeling. i wanted to listen to boards of canada (my favourite artist) on repeat.
i'm going to bring a new notebook and my pencil case if i do decide to write suicide letters i can. or just write down my final thoughts.
when i'm ready, i'm going to pop a few more bars 15 mins before i snort the fent. i'm planning on doing this around 4PM (this could give me 19 hours until checkout, which i'm sure would do the trick)
what would you be doing on your final day? i woke up at took4 xanax and vaped some weed. made breakfast and now drinking coffee. i was told by a user that i should fast, so my last meal will be at 4. i was planning on just getting drunk and doing blow (after i eat my last meal) to take some of this pain away and distract myself.
my agoraphobia is making it difficult to go on walks or public transit unless i uber.
nothing in life makes me happy. should i just waste away this last day by lying on my couch watching law and order?
god i fucking hate myself.
