LivingLies
Member
- Mar 12, 2019
- 25
Hi all,
I must be successful tomorrow. I'm 32 and I feel like I can't do this any longer. I don't want to do this any longer. I'm too anxious , lost and I'm failing at everything.
My family don't understand me. My parents might as well be non existent.
How do you overcome that feeling that you can't do it? I feel like such a coward. I really want to go but I'm fighting with my stupid head. I just want peace.
My partner leaves for work in the morning at 6 .... il have until tea time to suceed. Before he picks up his kids on Saturday and rubs in my face il never be the mother of his children.
I'm off sick from work and I keep telling my self it gives me time to leave.
I'm planning a partial suspension from a door handle with a couple of ties and string to make them super tight on the door handle. I'm a big girl so I can only hope it will hold enough of my weight so I'm successful.
Il leave notes at the bottom of the stairs by the front door so no one other than the emergency services will come upstairs.
Anything else to consider? How do I shut my head up so I can just do it. Btw won't have access to alcohol
I can't do it today.
I've written notes , tested my set up .... try again tomorrow. I know it's the best thing I can do.... just need the SI to back off and let me do it.
Failed today ... haven't enough time now
I've written notes , tested my set up .... try again tomorrow. I know it's the best thing I can do.... just need the SI to back off and let me do it.
I must be successful tomorrow. I'm 32 and I feel like I can't do this any longer. I don't want to do this any longer. I'm too anxious , lost and I'm failing at everything.
My family don't understand me. My parents might as well be non existent.
How do you overcome that feeling that you can't do it? I feel like such a coward. I really want to go but I'm fighting with my stupid head. I just want peace.
My partner leaves for work in the morning at 6 .... il have until tea time to suceed. Before he picks up his kids on Saturday and rubs in my face il never be the mother of his children.
I'm off sick from work and I keep telling my self it gives me time to leave.
I'm planning a partial suspension from a door handle with a couple of ties and string to make them super tight on the door handle. I'm a big girl so I can only hope it will hold enough of my weight so I'm successful.
Il leave notes at the bottom of the stairs by the front door so no one other than the emergency services will come upstairs.
Anything else to consider? How do I shut my head up so I can just do it. Btw won't have access to alcohol
I can't do it today.
I've written notes , tested my set up .... try again tomorrow. I know it's the best thing I can do.... just need the SI to back off and let me do it.
Failed today ... haven't enough time now
I've written notes , tested my set up .... try again tomorrow. I know it's the best thing I can do.... just need the SI to back off and let me do it.
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