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SuicideByBelt

SuicideByBelt

Student
Sep 18, 2019
142
Would like to know
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
For me it's just pain, no fear.
 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
There is no way of knowing for sure.
And the people that succeeded can't report back..
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,408
My guess is it has something to do with trying to outweigh it with the fear of whatever continuing to live will be like.
 
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Zebedee

Lost all hope
Sep 30, 2020
98
Inebriation
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Alcohol really helps me with that but unfortunately, that won't work with SN and I'm really scared of the other methods.
 
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Carrotcake

Carrotcake

Experienced
Nov 27, 2019
265
I've read threads on here about overcoming SI. I don't recall exactly. One possibility was desensitization. The body/mind can get used to anything. Or drugs.
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
Subconsciously I'm ruining my life so that it gets so bad that I'll have no choice but to end my life
 
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suicide4me

Student
Apr 1, 2021
104
I used to have fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of how people would take it. But now, I have finally allowed myself to have a "I don't give a fuck about anything attitude". And now, the fear is subsiding, the caring is subsiding and i've never been closer to ctb. It feels so good and I hope I can keep rolling with this feeling to finish the job.
 
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RedHarlequin

RedHarlequin

Mage
Jul 8, 2018
530
I used to have fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of how people would take it. But now, I have finally allowed myself to have a "I don't give a fuck about anything attitude". And now, the fear is subsiding, the caring is subsiding and i've never been closer to ctb. It feels so good and I hope I can keep rolling with this feeling to finish the job.
I hope one day I can have your attitude.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,653
I fear CTB. Not death itself. I think overcoming the fear of the act itself is an mixture of impulsivity and desperation. As for dying, I welcome the unknown. I belong on the other side of this existence.
 
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Moose.000

Moose.000

"Everything is meaningless" ~King Solomon
Apr 10, 2021
210
Unfortunately I don't think any of us have the actual answer to that important question, we're all still here.
 
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notsociallywired

Member
Dec 8, 2020
13
Subconsciously I'm ruining my life so that it gets so bad that I'll have no choice but to end my life
I haven't been able to put my self destructive habits into words before but wow that's exactly what I've been doing^
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,384
I think about all the things I hate about life the world, and myself.
 
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keyakizaka

keyakizaka

Member
Apr 25, 2021
28
honestly the only fear i have when it comes to dying is the fear of missing out.
 
Pure

Pure

Specialist
Jun 29, 2021
366
You don't, the want to die just has to be a greater driver
 

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