How do you know when you're ready?

[sivvie]

I've been trying to get myself to drink it for the past week now. It's the only thing I think about, day and night. How does one prepare? Is there a way to force, or help feeling ready to drink something like SN?

Share your experiences! Even if they're not about SN

 

[deletedaccount30982]

you cannot force yourself to be ready. if you are trying to forge yourself, it means you are not ready. this is not something you can go back on and it is something that will leave those behind you a lot to deal with. so if you are trying to find a way to make yourself do it then it is not the right time to do it. i hope you find peace in whatever you choose

 

[Snake of Eden]

From what i seen, something finally clicks in people heads and they know its time

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it will just be a feeling you have, where you are completely certain that it is the right time and you have no more doubts. In my case I believe I will only be able to ctb when I am desperate and the pain of living gets to be unbearable. This is because suicide is very difficult. There is the survival instinct and for me personally there is the fear of failure so I will have to be in a certain state of hopelessness to be able to overcome this fear. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Ldog9]

From what i seen, something finally clicks in people heads and they know its time

I've seen the same, some people seem to have this catharsis and calmness. From my personal experience and some other members, it was the opposite. It was agony as I got closer to my attempts. Not sure if it is SI or the obvious answer that subconsciously being not ready.

 

[Chiisai]

I've been trying to get myself to drink it for the past week now. It's the only thing I think about, day and night. How does one prepare? Is there a way to force, or help feeling ready to drink something like SN?

Share your experiences! Even if they're not about SN

Sharing my experience, I wasnt ready and maybe never will be. But reflecting on my future without bias and only seeing more negative than positive, my logic tells me that Im better off to CTB than prolonging my state.

 

[Onkyo74893]

As others have said, hesitation means not ready. I feel 99% sure I'll ctb at some point. Anytime between tommorow and 10 years from now. I'm 62, and am in good physical health, but mentally I'm a basket case. Deep depression. But I've no interest in dealing with physical impairment on top of the psychlogical pain. I'll know when it's time.

 

[D&D]

 

[GentleJerk]

I'm sorry, I wish I knew. I doubt most people are calm, cathartic and ready when they do it. They just find a way to do it anyway.

 

[needed_]

when I was 15 I attempted and it failed but I ended up at ICU so it was close, I can say with certainty that I wanted to die. and my experience was that I knew it was time and I was ready, but I was not calm. I was focused and determined, but very nervous. I took 100 ephedrine pills and at some point I vomited which was the problem, but it took a while to swallow all 100 pills and I would not have been able to if I wasn't convinced that I'd really want to die. but no calmness. that's why it's hard to tell I guess. I think you have to realise the difference between "yes I definitely want to die" and "yes I definitely want to die NOW" and ask yourself which option is true for you at the moment

 

[Crazy4u]

I want to know too. There must be a way to force it. it may not be the right time but what if pain is too much and i can't carry on? my low energy sucks too

 

[1nhibition]

been at peace w my decision , ctb date sunday... obvs gotta wait nd see what happens but for now i just feel so at peace with the certainty if that makes any sense,, and excited lmfao