How do we get rid of hope and si

[Foreversad]

How do we get rid of false hope and survival instinct .i thought it was pessimism but its plain realism .once you re realistic about your suffering and the bad things that people go through and make them suicidal everyone's here to call him crazy leave them suffering promise them a good furure/hope while unrealistic and then leave .just like that .with promises nothing will ever change.ive reached a point i sure know ill be sick torrured in the streets in the future .my mother seems to not understand because she egoistically and selfishally wants hee child alive not caring what will happen too me after she's gone .thats crazy .thats bs .promising someone a better furure without any way of it happening its crazy .not us being realistic. So as may many of you seen i decide that i wabt to end it im my time chosen.i wanna decide about my fate .not suicide neither ignorant people .i think its my right.everytime anyone gives me false hopes guilttrips me and make me emotional so they bring my back plan and im not focused on it .i wanna die .its my choice .while being emotional im not thinking straight and the resistance of myself to die begins .how could i stop being affected easily and focus on it?

 

[noname223]

Two times in my life I had really severe psychosomatic pain. It was very extreme. I will have tried what could have helped me. My answer is: let the pain be extreme enough and objectively barely hope. No future only living in agony. I think that should be enough. At least for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is hard to take our own lives, the SI can get in the way because as humans we are programmed to live. I think prolonged suffering is what can make us get over it and as the desperation increases we will feel like we are able to do it. At least that is what will likely happen to me as it does require courage.