How do we all keep going.

[GreenTree]

How the hell do we all get through the days. Its agony 24/7.

 

[Dagon]

I find it a lot easier when I have drugs to keep me company.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just exist really. I do not do a lot. I try to sleep as much as I possibly can. I live such an empty existence and I am tired of it. I am only still here because it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier to leave this world, I would already be gone. I wish I could just dissappear

 

[down for the count]

False hope. Fear of hurting others. Fear of death.

 

[Mr2005]

Tbh I don't even know what some people find so difficult only why it's hell for me. It's a personal thing as is what gets you through

 

[ClownMe]

I have no idea how i keep going, life is agonizing.

 

[Owl of Minerva]

I'm just patiently waiting for the right circumstances to exit.. being prepared is what keeps me going paradoxically

 

[TheHatedOne]

It's a little bit better when alcohol. But yeah life's only about suffering and being in pain.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I struggle to answer that question everyday. There will never be an answer. That's why ctb is my only choice

 

[GreenTree]

I just exist really. I do not do a lot. I try to sleep as much as I possibly can. I live such an empty existence and I am tired of it. I am only still here because it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier to leave this world, I would already be gone. I wish I could just dissappear

What about finances, shopping, cleaning up. I find these virtually impossible. Never wanted to be on benefits and now I am there are millions which is all too complex with mental illness. Another reason I want to kick the bucket.

I find it a lot easier when I have drugs to keep me company.

Benzos help. But back too square 1 after a few hours.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

What about finances, shopping, cleaning up. I find these virtually impossible. Never wanted to be on benefits and now I am there are millions which is all too complex with mental illness. Another reason I want to kick the bucket.

Benzos help. But back too square 1 after a few hours.

I haven't done laundry in the last 5 months. My place is a mess. Yeah benzos help temporarily, mostly to help me sleep, then it's back to shitty reality again. I feel your pain. I just want this all to stop

 

[Bedrock48]

Spite, little bit of hope, maybe some laziness and SI. I suppose thats the long and short of it.

 

[Manaaja]

Old habits. I have exercised and taken walks my whole life, so I'll just automatically take a walk or exercise after a while. Old memories and experiences. Just any sort of positive hope.

 

[Seafoam]

Basically my loved ones. Not so sure how long that will last though...

 

[Hurt]

I don't know why. I'm just surviving everyday. My mind can't stop thinking in ctb.

 

[deflationary]

We keep going because pure misery alone doesn't kill anyone. As sad as that is. We should have some sort of an inbuilt self-destruct mechanism that activates when life gets bad enough. I'd love to have exploded and splattered my guts all over the classroom when I was like 12.

 

[Molded foundation]

Sprinkled hope here and there, spite from my bullshit friends, and some sort of "force" I can't describe accurately; like a power that halts all opportunities to ctb that come my way.

 

[Sans]

Sprinkled hope here and there, spite from my bullshit friends, and some sort of "force" I can't describe accurately; like a power that halts all opportunities to ctb that come my way.

That about sums it up, minus the bullshit friends for me because I don't have any.

I find solace in the fact that one day I'm going to blow my head off in public, jump out of a plane, or some equally disgusting CTB methods as my final middle finger to society.