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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I don't get it. Normies want to do so much and they somehow have the energy to. Since I have summer holidays from university, my mum also wants me to do a lot (when I say "a lot", I mean that it's a lot for me but it's nothing for the average person). My mum wants me to find a job, get hired for a job, go to gym, read a bunch of islamic shit, be more active and overall just rot less in my room. For normal people, this isn't much but, for me, I'm already overwhelmed. I gotten a migraine due to this that has been persisting for hours and I have no way to deal with it. Keep in mind, I'm not actually doing any of the stuff my mum wants me to... yet but just thinking about it has really made me hurt a lot.

I have such a low pain tolerance and I get overwhelmed so easily. It's obvious that life isn't meant for me. It's obvious that being a human isn't meant for me. I just get overwhelmed too easily at basic things in life. Why people like me are even kept alive... I will never understand. It's cruel to force me to stay alive when I can't even handle life. Once again, I don't understand how normies even do it. Compared to me, they have superpowers. I don't envy them for it though; I'm just merely pointing out the insanely high magnitude of difference between me and normies which I then use to conclude that being a human isn't meant for me.

I was going to vent more about this but this migraine is hurting me a lot and I'm struggling at typing more so I'll stop here
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,721
I'm amazed at all the energy they have even just taking a shower is exhausting
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I'd like to leave the world as a better place
Sep 19, 2023
2,106
People are built differently and mental health plays a big role. I am really amazed by outliers who can work like 16 hour days, but even average people seem to have more energy because they don't have mental blocks.

I know my physical body is capable of high energy when I care about something, but most of the time I can't be bothered which leads to me basically wanting to hibernate.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies. Forever 22.
Apr 25, 2023
1,085
They don't have mental health issues.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,804
Good physical and mental health, honestly. Even before I started experiencing physical health problems I seemed to have a lower stress tolerance than most people due to my Autism, I would tire out quickly, this seems to be more common for us autistic people than neurotypicals. Also while I would say diet doesn't have a huge effect on overall health for me personally, when I started experiencing issues with IBS and constipation it threw off my eating habits and has resulted in less energy. If you're unable to consistently eat, sleep, and follow schedules that the average person can you're going to have less energy overall.
 
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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
479
They're (much) more healthy overall compared to you.

The bigger problem is them not showing any consideration and expecting you to be the same.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,447
Depression makes even brushing teeth hard work, it's not about overall energy its just a depressed mind cannot function properly.
 
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glossble

glossble

homesick ⭒
Apr 14, 2023
107
I guess this is how it supposed to be when you're mentally healthy. I also feel like I could achieve so much if I wanted to, but I have no desire to do anything, no goals, nothing excites me anymore. I miss me who dreamed, had goals and motivation, now I feel like nothing is worth the effort (|||❛︵❛.)
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,385
Diet, exercise, and other such scams.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
795
I don't get it. Normies want to do so much and they somehow have the energy to. Since I have summer holidays from university, my mum also wants me to do a lot (when I say "a lot", I mean that it's a lot for me but it's nothing for the average person). My mum wants me to find a job, get hired for a job, go to gym, read a bunch of islamic shit, be more active and overall just rot less in my room. For normal people, this isn't much but, for me, I'm already overwhelmed. I gotten a migraine due to this that has been persisting for hours and I have no way to deal with it. Keep in mind, I'm not actually doing any of the stuff my mum wants me to... yet but just thinking about it has really made me hurt a lot.

I have such a low pain tolerance and I get overwhelmed so easily. It's obvious that life isn't meant for me. It's obvious that being a human isn't meant for me. I just get overwhelmed too easily at basic things in life. Why people like me are even kept alive... I will never understand. It's cruel to force me to stay alive when I can't even handle life. Once again, I don't understand how normies even do it. Compared to me, they have superpowers. I don't envy them for it though; I'm just merely pointing out the insanely high magnitude of difference between me and normies which I then use to conclude that being a human isn't meant for me.

I was going to vent more about this but this migraine is hurting me a lot and I'm struggling at typing more so I'll stop here
They're mentally well and actually enjoy being alive.

It's like how some people get a kick out of watching football or are just naturally good at socializing; different perspective, different circumstances.
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Severe Medical Phobia « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
549
I share your same feeling about not being made to live, I'm... Surprised someone used my exact wording of my thoughts. I'm also sorry to hear about it though...
 
Silent.Tears

Silent.Tears

Experienced
Nov 5, 2021
282
I feel the same way..
 
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AmberianDawn

AmberianDawn

Member
Jun 9, 2024
62
It's incredible, I have a good diet (I think), I do some daily exercise and even so I can't overcome the depression and the desire to be dead, I don't understand how people manage to live, have goals and so on, my only goal is a peaceful death, I would like to go to sleep and not wake up again, just wanna sleep forever, why i cant?
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
311
because life itself drains the energy out of us. every single step and action takes more time and effort for us to recover from.

(us = those who are okay with catching the bus at some point.)

we're battling with life while they're enjoying life.

basically, we're facing a wall and they're not.
 
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EternalSummer

EternalSummer

Experienced
Nov 13, 2020
275
This thread is exactly the question to be answered and puzzles me more than 'why do some people dont wanna live or wish they had never existed?'

A normal person's life consists of doing nothing of real relevance to the world, being exploited by the people they work for, and being brainwashed into believing (usually through religion) that their life is meaningful and important, and that the creator of the whole universe cares about them.

I mean, I can only imagine myself enjoying life if at least 40-50% of it were pleasant. Right now, it's about 5% pleasant on weekends when I'm with my friends. But the ordeal of going through the day doing all this stuff I don't want to do, which makes me feel anxious and sometimes even gives me panic attacks, is just not worth it.

I guess some people are genuinely happy, but there's a big percentage that gets scared and forced into conforming to the rules, becoming only another cog in the system.
 
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prone2fury

prone2fury

i have pretty hair
Feb 4, 2023
66
I feel similarly. Everyone else around me can manage having a job, interacting with other humans, and eating. But I'm garbage at all of them, which makes me a suicidal, low-value, low-output human. Normies are lucky enough to have some form of motivation, friends/family, or faith in God to keep them moving forward. But if you don't have those, or if you're just unlucky, then you're S.O.L.
 
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hematomatema

hematomatema

my name was lewis
Feb 29, 2024
156
People on this forum are always surprised by how others can do things so freely but it's all down to mental health. It plays a far larger role than any other form of 'motivation' or any other factor involved in providing you the willpower and energy to get shit done. When I was less depressed earlier this year, I found myself being able to do in a day what I would have done in a month on months like these where I feel far more suicidal. You don't need anything special, just a brain that doesn't want to actively be rid of itself. Most people have that.
 
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enduringwinter

enduringwinter

flower, water
Jun 20, 2024
364
I have always been physically weak (weekly bloodworks at the hospital and more since I was a child type of weak) but I used to be able to pull off a ton of impossible feats when I believed it was for a definite cause - that I would be getting tangible results. It was miserable. I was exhausted and falling apart the whole way, but I simply thought nothing of it because I didn't know any other way to exist. After so much abuse and rotten luck — trying 10 times as hard to get half the results only to have it all mockingly taken away from me again and again — I couldn't put myself back together anymore.

I know for a fact there's nothing wrong with me mentally or personality-wise. I would be a normie if my life had not been like this.
 
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