How do I stop going in circles

[Iwouldratherdie]

My last time was ruined because I called for help. I wouldn't call for help this time. I have too many worries to try again. I wish it didn't have to be this hard to CTB…

 

[RedDEE]

I really don't know how to stop going in circles. When I figure it out, I'll tell you.. if I'm still alive.

 

[SadGirl]

I'm in a fucking loop where I cry every night, I don't feel well, I just wanted to cease to exist.

 

[ladolcemorte]

Not sure anyone here can tell you how to get out of the loop because we are all still here, for one reason or another...the people who have "cracked the code" and achieved death are (presumably) not able to post on this forum.

I also wish that it were easier to CTB. I wish I could just push a button or snap my fingers and end it. But the reality is that CTB is hard. Probably one of the hardest things anyone could ever do. We are biologically wired to survive. Even if your brain unequivocally wants to die, your body is engineered to survive.