Help How do I get the energy to kill myself?

[so-many-failures]

I've got a method (partial hanging) prepped and ready to go, so I just need to build up the courage to stop being a coward and actually kill myself. But every single night I'm just too tired to actually do it. I really, really want to, and I don't fear it at night, but I just don't have the energy to get up and do it. Is there any way to solve this? Kind of a silly question, but it's like the only thing keeping me here right now, so.

 

[I_go_in]

When living becomes immediately worse than dying. Living sucks but is sort of a slower burn while killing yourself requires immediate decisive action. Depression comes along with lots of inertia.

 

[NeoN0va]

For me at least, situations that make death look far more suitable than living give me such energy. I am suicidal, once again, as every second my entire body hurts and its just so fucking awful, pain that cant be taken away no matter what i do, and sleeping is the only option. So the best bet for you would be either an impulse or an awful situation (if you arent experiencing one already) TvT

 

[itsgone2]

I think it SI. It has many forms. So many ways to shut you down instead of going through with it.

 

[PapaYeehaw]

I get the same thing and it's probably the biggest reason I'm still here. It makes sense why we'd feel exhausted thinking about it because it's extremely emotionally taxing to attempt. My brain knows that now after several and sees it as a chore somehow?? Even though life is incredibly exhausting and I want out. I wish I could willpower my way through it. Alcohol used to help me overcome that, but I've stopped drinking.