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theevildoctors

theevildoctors

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Mar 30, 2026
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Hello.
I'm in the process of planning to ctb, I and I'm pretty sure I can figure everything else out..ive considered some methods, and I've also started preparing my letters that I'll write for my loved ones before I go.

So I should be good right? well the only problem is I don't know when exactly I'll be ready for this. I wanted to do December 22nd, as that day is very important to me. However, I genuinely don't know how much longer I can wait without cutting myself open. I'm thinking about the 21st of June but Im wondering if anyone here has advice on how to chose the perfect date. Or at least how to toughen it out until June or December.
 
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chloeburbank

chloeburbank

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Jan 30, 2026
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I'm also having trouble planning my date. I don't want to do it too close to a family member's birthday or holiday. I wanted to do it this month but I keep putting off buying the remaining materials I need. Realistically I won't even be able to do it in May or June unless I stop being a bitch are just order the stuff.

Choosing the "perfect date" is a very personal choice so it's hard to give advice on that. But if you want to hold out until then, I would try getting into some new hobbies. I've sorta gave up on most of my responsibilities the past couple of months because I know there really isn't a point in trying if I'm gonna be gone soon. I just want to "enjoy" my remaining time here and not have to worry about grown up things.

I hope things get better for you, sending hugs 💜
 
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theevildoctors

theevildoctors

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Mar 30, 2026
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I'm also having trouble planning my date. I don't want to do it too close to a family member's birthday or holiday. I wanted to do it this month but I keep putting off buying the remaining materials I need. Realistically I won't even be able to do it in May or June unless I stop being a bitch are just order the stuff.

Choosing the "perfect date" is a very personal choice so it's hard to give advice on that. But if you want to hold out until then, I would try getting into some new hobbies. I've sorta gave up on most of my responsibilities the past couple of months because I know there really isn't a point in trying if I'm gonna be gone soon. I just want to "enjoy" my remaining time here and not have to worry about grown up things.

I hope things get better for you, sending hugs 💜
aw, this is really good advice..thank you so much.

I hope things get better for you aswell, stay strong 💛
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

Waiting for my permanent darkness to arrive
Oct 21, 2024
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A few people tend to pick a date that's not around a holiday or a loved one's birthday, so it lessens the burden of celebration for them having to remember that was the day you ctb.

I'm planning mid June or so, which is of no importance of any holidays or bdays. No exact day in June, just when it happens. There's nothing of significance for me picking June, I just want to do a few things for fun before I go.
 
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