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CaramelDragon

CaramelDragon

Member
Feb 26, 2022
36
I'm strangely calm, a little tired. I am disappointed and angry, but one hour after spending 2 hours partially hanging I had to host a work meeting so I had to snap out of it (wish my neck snapped!). I'm wondering if I will have nightmares or if I will just feel almost numb to it. I've certainly never choked from a rope or ever blacked out before and I was determined not to come back, but alas, here I am. Did anyone have a delayed reaction to their failed attempt?
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
807
Just incredibly angry, self-loathing, and bitter that I failed so miserably, and very very upset and ashamed that I was once again putting my loved ones through hell. They'd have way less to deal with if I just died and got it over with, instead of this endless cycle of decomping and being worrisome and ending up in the hospital and whatnot. I'm just dragging out pain for everyone. I basically stopped talking the moment the cops arrived and didn't start talking until day 3 or so of the psych ward. I was just too angry. The involuntary psych ward admission just made me angrier. I'm determined to never do that to my loved ones again. I've done it a dozen times. I fucking hate myself for it. I'm either going to be suicidal and not tell a soul or I'm going to be dead, also without telling a soul.
 
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UnravelingWinter

UnravelingWinter

I wish I was a sunflower
Mar 19, 2022
206
Always that disappointment that I'm still alive.
 
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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
Before my first suicide attempt i thought that dying was more simple,instead...i found out how much hard and difficult it is
 
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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
408
I felt disappointment and failure.
 
DontplayGod

DontplayGod

She/her
Feb 6, 2022
123
Pissed off. The recovery from my OD was extremely painful, I was constantly wishing I wouldn't have woken up rather than deal with a fucking catheter for another minute. But seriously those thing hurt like hell
 
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symphony

symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
779
The first time I self-aborted the attempt because I got scared. I don't remember fully but I think I temporarily felt a renewed sense of determination to recover and regretted the attempt.

The second and third times were different. I was stopped by others using force against me. I was angry, upset, extremely volatile. I calmed down a bit after several hours but remained highly suicidal.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,790
Before my first suicide attempt i thought that dying was more simple,instead...i found out how much hard and difficult it is
Same GIF by Debby Ryan
 
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FogFilledLife

Student
Jan 6, 2022
164
Powerful and immortal. Then the next day the feelings of worthlessness kick in.
 
Hercules

Hercules

Arcanist
Jan 31, 2021
408
I felt a mix of disappointment and relief. Strangely I felt very calm and detached from everything almost like I was in a dream.
 
BorntoLose

BorntoLose

Member
Apr 1, 2022
6
Disappoinment, sorrow. Feeling like no matter what I do, I'll always fuck it up.
 
heirofvoid

heirofvoid

Member
Dec 20, 2021
72
I did two attempts but they didn't even reached a point where I got hurt lol but I just felt sadder and more hopeless.
 

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