How close are you to ctb?

[Kramer]

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[Dr Iron Arc]

I plan to CTB when I'm 28 so I guess I technically have 1-2 years left to go since my birthday is in February. I might not CTB right away in my 28th year though because there's some movies I'd want to watch that were pushed back into mid-2022 due to covid.

 

[Nodscene]

I just had a failed attempt in Nov and lost my doctor (long story) so I'll be out of meds for my chronic pain in a month or two so that's my timeline. There are no doctors taking patients where I live and even if there were no one will prescribe opiods so I'm screwed and have no other options. Even if I did it wouldn't change much. It's well past time that this life should have ended.

 

[Initiated]

I have to buy a paracord. It is quite difficult to get where I live. And I am already on suicide watch of my parents. I am acting normal for a month. Then I will buy it. Then there is no stopping me.

 

[Thanatonaut]

I plan to CTB when I'm 28 so I guess I technically have 1-2 years left to go since my birthday is in February. I might not CTB right away in my 28th year though because there's some movies I'd want to watch that were pushed back into mid-2022 due to covid.

I was waiting for Dune and then it got pushed to next December. And then HBO Max decides to release all these movies online. Can't they move Dune back?!?

I just had a failed attempt in Nov and lost my doctor (long story) so I'll be out of meds for my chronic pain in a month or two so that's my timeline. There are no doctors taking patients where I live and even if there were no one will prescribe opiods so I'm screwed and have no other options. Even if I did it wouldn't change much. It's well past time that this life should have ended.

Have you seen my posts? You and I are in the exact same situation.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Hopefully sometime in the first half of 2021

 

[BRAINWORMS]

I'm trying to hold off completely until I get my bachelor's. I'll reassess then, but for now, CTB/SN is a kill switch.

 

[Meretlein]

Either a few months away or 5 years depending on how things turn out.

 

[PureMetanoia]

I am holding on to a desperate hope that my relationship with my ex will be revived, as it truly made life worth enduring.
In the meantime I'm taking antidepressants, benzos and always having music on to get through the day without being torn apart by negative thoughts/self-blame.
I've progressively been withdrawing from anything that can keep me around - dropping off uni next semester, maybe quit my job/training and do something freelance/non-commital.

So all in all I truly hope I am close, but I've certainly felt much closer before and haven't done it (I don't even have failed attempts, I'm pretty sure I'll succeed the first time). But even this - "getting on the bus" - somehow feels out of my control, like most anything else in life, which is a pitiful and degrading realization...

 

[Amumu]

It'll depend on my resistance to pain and suffering

 

[Thanatonaut]

Right now I'm thinking next month. I wanted to CTB on the solstice during the Great Conjunction, just because I thought that would be cool. But I didn't want to mess up my family's Xmas.

 

[aminend]

Main is in 2_3 months. I prepared SN and all thing needed now

 

[perdredenord]

I'm thinking I'm going to ctb in February or March. Saving up to go somewhere that isn't here