How can you ve 100% sure?

[rs929]

I have recurrent depression and I think about CTBing a lot.
I remember thinking that making myself ingest some poison that will make my blood brownish is kind of a cruel thing to do, when I was in remission.
But when I'm pain, I feel desperate and I think of CTBing as something compassionate to myself
However, some moments I think I can't be sure 100% what the future holds for me. Maybe, just maybe, there's a slight chance for things to get better, a new revolutionary treatment for depression or something, or miracously meeting someone who will love me. I can't know for SURE that there's nothing worth living for, I know its VERY LIKELY that my life will not improve though
Does this mean that I'm not ready to CTB? Do people who CTB have a 99.9999% final decision made up in their minds?

 

[heyismeman]

Most people who ctb do it on impulse they don't plan anything out

 

[Intoxicated]

You can't be 100% sure that some day you won't be hit by a truck on a road and become a paralyzed potato. People tend to ignore small chances as if they were non-existing when the benefits from taking the risks are appealing enough.

 

[Namelesa]

While yes things could get better, things could get worse or stay the same. I would rather not take that risk and just ctb even if there is doubt (which I do have some) as I can't regret killing myself after dying if I am in nothingness and so can't feel or want anything so I am 100% sure I want this with my logical reasoning even if some of my emotions disagree with it. If I did an attempt that I stopped in the middle of, I would later regret with not fully going through with it.

 

[slightoverlooked]

im very impulsive and tbh i can relate to this. any time i attempted it was out of impulse and i cant relate to ppl who are 100 percent sure...sometimes when the sun shines right, my brain is a bit nice and my friends are around i believe there might be hope that things get better but...idk..i feel like i will regret not doing it now, yk? but idk. its so hard to be sure

 

[wiggy]

Not only is it impossible to be sure that things won't improve, by my account you have a lot of agency over it. I'm generally less likely supportive of suicides motivated by a well defined set of external circumstances in comparison to suicides motivated by a more abstract rejection of existence. Of course, it should still be left up to the individual to choose.

 

[killthyself]

I have recurrent depression and I think about CTBing a lot.
I remember thinking that making myself ingest some poison that will make my blood brownish is kind of a cruel thing to do, when I was in remission.
But when I'm pain, I feel desperate and I think of CTBing as something compassionate to myself
However, some moments I think I can't be sure 100% what the future holds for me. Maybe, just maybe, there's a slight chance for things to get better, a new revolutionary treatment for depression or something, or miracously meeting someone who will love me. I can't know for SURE that there's nothing worth living for, I know its VERY LIKELY that my life will not improve though
Does this mean that I'm not ready to CTB? Do people who CTB have a 99.9999% final decision made up in their minds?

No one is 100% sure, its in our nature to survive and escape dangers.

 

[Higurashi415]

Most people who ctb do it on impulse they don't plan anything out

true but they also usually fail