How are you really doing? Where on the Emmengard Suicide Scale are you?

[NZkiwi]

credit to user @Gild-Holm-'Ur for mentioning it on another thread

I guess we are all here cause we are a little suicidal, some want to recover, others want to ctb and everything im between.

Its hard to know how "suicidal" you are, sometimes you feel like a fraud.

On this scale, I was a 9/10 last week. ie started buying what i need

This week I am a 8/10 - im engaging with the public health menthal health so i we have agreed that I would not buy sn/straps/etc whats needed for me to kill myself. Not going to pickup what I have ordered. Daily phonecalls/messages and weekly appointments for now. Ergo im in the real world and not locked in a psych ward.

Curious to how SaSu is feeling.

As to not overload the group recovery thread ive posted here for a change

@ConfusedClouds
@Cloud Busting
@UltraAlter
@StarsAbove
@LRkin
@Meretlein
@never mind me
@ladybird jones drew
@ColorlessTrees

No obligation to reply
Have lovely week, no matter where you are on this

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It's honestly surprising to me that lately I have been at a 4-5 on this scale, considering how many times I've been at a 9 or 10 in the past... I still have days where I get up to a 6 sometimes, but it isn't every day, and it probably only happens on occasion.

 

[LRkin]

Um... 6, I guess

 

[Set Real Goul]

I'd say around 4–5 for now, but if my sleep problems don't get any better by spring, I'll probably jump up to a 10

 

[homunculi]

i'd say 5 or 6 the past couple of days

 

[oilsaniok]

credit to user @Gild-Holm-'Ur for mentioning it on another thread

I guess we are all here cause we are a little suicidal, some want to recover, others want to ctb and everything im between.

Its hard to know how "suicidal" you are, sometimes you feel like a fraud.

On this scale, I was a 9/10 last week. ie started buying what i need

This week I am a 8/10 - im engaging with the public health menthal health so i we have agreed that I would not buy sn/straps/etc whats needed for me to kill myself. Not going to pickup what I have ordered. Daily phonecalls/messages and weekly appointments for now. Ergo im in the real world and not locked in a psych ward.

Curious to how SaSu is feeling.

As to not overload the group recovery thread ive posted here for a change

@ConfusedClouds
@Cloud Busting
@UltraAlter
@StarsAbove
@LRkin
@Meretlein
@never mind me
@ladybird jones drew
@ColorlessTrees

No obligation to reply
Have lovely week, no matter where you are on this

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

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6.5

 

[t8129]

this scale doesnt really work for me somehow my thoughts dont really get consumed like this anymore

 

[never mind me]

For me this scale doens't fit I think. I don't do risky behaviours even if I am actively planning to end my life and due to SI and a wish to have control over what happens to me I still avoid harm from outside sources even if I am feeling suicidal.
Also I rarely have intrusive thoughts about suicide, but for the most part I actively engage in them.
And I can also be unhappy or stressed without considering suicide. That's where I am at the moment, although I can imagine myself change back to being suicidal, if my health problems get worse again/ don't improve further for a long time. But for now I am hopeful enough to not wish to die.