Venting How am I supposed to enjoy life again?

[TheSoulless]

After I realised how pointless this all is, I don't think I can ever truly "recover". I have nothing more to learn, nothing more to experience. This is it. I'm just spending time until I die. I have no goals, I just live. As a child I had dreams, but they are not possible to achieve in this reality. I've crossed the fatal line.

 

[glittergore]

I feel like I'm undergoing the process that led you here, hurling towards the same inevitable conclusion. I still have some dreams and goals, but they get dimmer as every day goes by. Nothing seems quite as vivid or important as they used to be. Life offers less and less. It's a draining place to be.

 

[stillweary]

I had my sense of purpose stolen from me. I never recovered from that.

 

[SoIntoYou]

Suicide shouldn't be viewed as a selfish thing. It's a beautiful thing when you realize the only reason you're kept alive is to feed off you.

 

[Meditation guide]

It's a beautiful thing when you realize the only reason you're kept alive is to feed off you.

That's exactly how it is. I pay taxes. I pay rent. I spend money on food and other things. That is my purpose in life. The idea that there is enjoyment in life is gone. If I were younger and healthy I could find some things to do that were pleasurable but now I'm just here to spend money so others can profit.

 

[dysfunctional]

I honestly don't feel like I can. Why I want to end it all. I used to enjoy many thrills from life, fly fishing and mountaineering. Really premerie life experiences.