How am I still alive?

[summers]

So the other day, let's just say I took about 20% too much of a certain ped, and in combination with a bunch of other things, my heart has been pounding in my chest for days. Like I'm running full sprint, even laying down. That night, I finally laid down, and really though that was it, like I was going to have a fatal heart attack. I thought I was going to win that lottery :)

Anyway, I'm still here... The heart thing is just annoying at this point, but I guess it's going to keep working for now. What's funny is that I personally know people who've done less for less time, and actually had a heart attack.

I said in another post that dying in your sleep is like wining the lottery. I would be happy with 5/6 numbers and just dropping dead while I'm awake.

Edit: my heart rate has not dropped below 120bpm for days now.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

My friend I've been drinking for 40 days and 40 nights and I'm wondering the same.

 

[summers]

My friend I've been drinking for 40 days and 40 nights and I'm wondering the same.

That has to be expensive :)

 

[Wrennie]

I wear a pulse oximeter on my finger and it always beeps uncontrollably. It gives me hope that I'm nearing death. That the void will come to embrace me.

 

[Crazy4u]

I am glad you are still alive. I hope your heart rate drops below 100.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds very uncomfortable to have to deal with. I wish I could die in my sleep, as that is my preferred way to die. It would mean I would not have to ctb. I wish you the best.

 

[Snake of Eden]

This has been happening to me too and I also am wondering how i am still alive. I doubt my 1.5 years of meth use has somethtng to do with it. I am 36 which is not young but not too old either. Yay