I have no children, no family, no friends and no partner. I spend most of my days alone because I hate conversation. I get nothing out of talking to people and find my eyes glaze over. So it's a double edged sword. Be alone or suffer the anxiety/boredom of relationships.
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BeansOfRequirement
Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,845
I drink a lot of water, I piss a lot of pee.
JustAMatterOfTime
Fragile
- Mar 21, 2021
- 905
No children (what an unmitigated disaster that would be), hide from my friends, only imaginary partner. I feel the same really don't care for conversation it's hard too, makes me very anxious. Trying a bit to talk to people though think it helps not sure though.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,669
I am naturally very introverted. In general I just prefer being on my own, I find being around people and having conversations exhausting and the sound of certain voices can be particularly grating (due to autism sound sensitivity) I am around my parents but don't really socialise apart from that, I have lost touch with friends I have had as a child/teenager.
BottomlessPit
Staring at the edge
- Apr 28, 2021
- 423
Social events are too stressful for me so I mostly don't go to them. And even when I go I end up not saying anything because I tend to over analyze what I want to say.I am surrounded by people and have never felt more alone in my life.
motel rooms
Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
- 7,081
You're talking to people who aren't all boring right now. We're not all brain-dead. A lot of us are working on achieving literal brain death though
Totally_nothin
Member
- Apr 26, 2021
- 30
i have nobody around me, no family, and almost no friends, my normal days are very sad, because i have nothing to do... only listening to music and thinking about suicideim fortunate enough to have my immediate family around me, once i go back to university ill be completely alone again.
StringPuppet
Lost
- Oct 5, 2020
- 579
I'm very alone most of the time but honestly I see it as a double edged sword just like you
Mentalmick
IMHOTEP!!!
- Nov 30, 2020
- 2,049
Yep, me too. I used to think I was lonely but I'm not, I feel alone, which seems to be a different thing entirely.So alone that I forgot/forget how to properly human... I am conflicted between the desire to want to reach out to people but not wanting to burden them with my presence that I believe is sickening and temporary so instead I just stopped..
DunnoWhyButYeah
~*-*~
- Apr 3, 2020
- 409
I'm never physically alone, but my soul feels like it... I had someone who filled that emptiness but not anymore.Thanks for the replies. I also over analyze what I say and then I'm so in my head thinking of what to spout and lose the convo thread as I'm too busy preparing myself. Thoroughly fed up with it.
BandAddict
Specialist
- Apr 3, 2019
- 338
I'm not physically alone, but I feel very lonely. It's like I'm trapped in my head, looking out, but not able to interact with the world properly. It's torture, and I can't bring myself to reach out. Even in conversation, I feel so far away, so removed. It's agonizing to be living this nightmare that no one else can see, and that no one will reach into to pull me out. I feel invisible, but I'm so tired that being seen just seems like too much.
I think everyone is tired of me. When I cry nobody talks to me, they ignore me or talk about random shit whether I engage or not. It's as though I didn't exist in that room. I don't want to exist.
Yep. If I could have relationships and enjoyed conversations then I wouldn't always be thinking about suicide. It's difficult to be alone either physically or mentally but I do wonder why I/we are like this. Why can't we relax and enjoy company!!
SweetDreams500
Narcissistic gay NEETcel
- Apr 4, 2021
- 234
Bat 17
Bat 17
- Mar 30, 2021
- 307
I'm certainly more alone than I've ever been in my life. I've lost interest in a lot of social discourse, unless I really force myself which I only do if I have to.
A_miStake_of_NATURE
I wish no one had to CTB..........
- Aug 14, 2020
- 703
Physically I'm surrounded by some very good people. And I'm very glad that they're here. And I don't wanna sound ungrateful, but none of em understands me. And no one can help me. I think they all wait for me to snap out of it one day. I can't even talk to anyone, when I'm feeling my worst. I'm feeling incredibly lonely most of the time, even though physically I'm almost never alone
I blame the plastic particles we breathe in and drink - I sometimes think in years to come, it will be known that they effed with our bodies.Lonely gang
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
The only person I see physically at least once a week is my dad.
Then, I see no one. However, virtually, I have some gaming friends and you all. Also, I talk to my students from Monday to Saturday.
I don't feel very lonely but I'm quite alone.Last edited:
Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,203
I am alone, because I know the minute I speak my truth, everyone will turn on me
SweetDreams500
Narcissistic gay NEETcel
- Apr 4, 2021
- 234
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
Spanish and English! My job is the only thing I actually enjoy but I gotta admit it's quite difficult to leave my bed sometimes lol.
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,560
Im lonely as can be. I have family but theyre all narcassists and hate me and some just dont want to be around me at all. I have no girlfriend or friends in general and havent had any for at least 5 or so years now. Everything in life i do alone. Its absolutely heartbreaking, sometimes i hug my pillow as i go to sleep to feel some kind of human contact. I have 2 online friends that i talk to sometimes and a dog who i love (but it's not the same as real life friends).
SweetDreams500
Narcissistic gay NEETcel
- Apr 4, 2021
- 234
Put on some headphones and listen to some asmr. That's what I do, it's great.
Marktheghost
Paragon
- Feb 20, 2020
- 911
Same, except I'd love to have someone to talk to. I'm desperate for some company!!sometimes i feel terribly lonely when i'm in the middle of a crowd.
so many people just staring at their phones like zombies, too.
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,699
Hmm - on an arbitrary scale: somewhere in between. I enjoy my own company most of the time, and dislike outside social gatherings such as parties; in fact being around other people in those situations generally makes me feel very isolated. At the same time I still like to have contact and relationships with a few others that could be considered close - just not in the same way that most outgoing and extroverted individuals do.
I like being alone, but dislike the loneliness. I am a Schrödinger's Loner.Similar threads
