How about ctb by pesticide?

[Tearygirl]

I ordered my SN, but I don't want to wait any longer. I am a harmful vermin, an useless creature needs to be exterminated. I sometimes think people will be unhappy if I die in painless way because everyone hates me and nobody loves me. I can't stand myself because I am totally terrible, and worthless being. Since I am a vermin, how about ctb by pesticide? How long does it take to die? And how painful it is?

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

I ordered my SN, but I don't want to wait any longer. I am a harmful vermin, an useless creature needs to be exterminated. I sometimes think people will be unhappy if I die in painless way because everyone hates me and nobody loves me. I can't stand myself because I am totally terrible, and worthless being. Since I am a vermin, how about ctb by pesticide? How long does it take to die? And how painful it is?

I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. In all honesty, pesticide is a really rough way to go. It's not made to quickly dispatch humans, and typically takes quite a while. Most pesticides cause liver or other organ failure. Cyanide is a little faster but causes immense discomfort. I know you're in a hurry, but if you can hang on until you get your SN, I think you'll find it considerably more pleasant.

I'm not ignoring your belief that you should be made to suffer. My big fear for you is that a pesticide attempt will fail and compromise your opportunity for a successful SN attempt.

 

[Farmmaa]

I've been a horticulturist for 30 years and can say with 100% certainty that you do not want to ingest any pesticides.
It would be an intensely painful, slow, horrible way to go

 

[Tearygirl]

I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. In all honesty, pesticide is a really rough way to go. It's not made to quickly dispatch humans, and typically takes quite a while. Most pesticides cause liver or other organ failure. Cyanide is a little faster but causes immense discomfort. I know you're in a hurry, but if you can hang on until you get your SN, I think you'll find it considerably more pleasant.

I'm not ignoring your belief that you should be made to suffer. My big fear for you is that a pesticide attempt will fail and compromise your opportunity for a successful SN attempt.

But cyanide can kill a person immediately. Doesn't it mean pesticide is also a fast way to go?

 

[Farmmaa]

But cyanide can kill a person immediately. Doesn't it mean pesticide is also a fast way to go?

No. Pesticides do not contain pure, concentrated cyanide.
They are formulated to poison mice and rats, not humans.

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

But cyanide can kill a person immediately. Doesn't it mean pesticide is also a fast way to go?

That's the thing though, it's not immediate. Most pesticides don't just stop your breathing or heart. They destroy your kidneys, or inhibit blood clotting, or other elaborate physiological damage. SN is way better than pesticides imo. If you cannot wait, I'd look through the resources or the pph for any other way.

 

[Tearygirl]

That's the thing though, it's not immediate. Most pesticides don't just stop your breathing or heart. They destroy your kidneys, or inhibit blood clotting, or other elaborate physiological damage. SN is way better than pesticides imo. If you cannot wait, I'd look through the resources or the pph for any other way.

Yes, it's hard to wait so I am even thinking of hang myself in a public disabled washroom.. for one persk use, but I was afraid because I might get caught and saved, and I am afraid of hanging too.

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

Yes, it's hard to wait so I am even thinking of hang myself in a public disabled washroom.. for one persk use, but I was afraid because I might get caught and saved, and I am afraid of hanging too.

So I personally use a 72 hour system for my CTB urges. When I'm ready, I start a 72 hour countdown. This gives me time to gather my materials, and so forth. It also lets my brain process whatever may be causing my urge to CTB to spike. Usually I wind up stopping the timer because the urge passes. My point is, not knowing your situation, I'd love to see you in control of your exit and not rushed or forced to settle for a method you cannot embrace. If you're scared of hanging, don't put yourself through that. If you have to CTB, do it on your terms.

 

[Tearygirl]

So I personally use a 72 hour system for my CTB urges. When I'm ready, I start a 72 hour countdown. This gives me time to gather my materials, and so forth. It also lets my brain process whatever may be causing my urge to CTB to spike. Usually I wind up stopping the timer because the urge passes. My point is, not knowing your situation, I'd love to see you in control of your exit and not rushed or forced to settle for a method you cannot embrace. If you're scared of hanging, don't put yourself through that. If you have to CTB, do it on your terms.

Thanks. Maybe I should not hurry and wait for my SN arrives.

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

Thanks. Maybe I should not hurry and wait for my SN arrives.

You're in control. CTB answers to you. You choose when.

 

[Tearygirl]

You're in control. CTB answers to you. You choose when.

It's hard to control, so I hope my SN arrives in this year..

 

[sfabians]

"Worried over the outcome of the National Entrance Exam, a young medical aspirant allegedly died by pesticide poisoning."
"Despite the advise from his parents to wait for the test results, Keerthivasan allegedly consumed pesticides on Friday afternoon and was admitted to the hospital, where he died at night" RIP.

Medical aspirant kills self over NEET in Tamil Nadu | Medical aspirant kills self over NEET in Tamil Nadu

Despite the advise from his parents to wait for the results, he allegedly consumed pesticides on Friday and was admitted to hospital

www.deccanchronicle.com

NEET aspirant dies by suicide in Tamil Nadu fearing poor result: Cops

The aspirant from Sangarayapuram had appeared for the entrance exam held in September for the third time, results of which are expected in a couple of days.

www.hindustantimes.com