Horrible news

[Red87]

My cousin killed his self tonight he was only 21 had a one year old son he shot himself I'm so sad he was so young

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I'm so sorry for your loss. That is truly heartbreaking. It may not mean much but know I'm here for you and anyone else who is impacted <3

 

[Red87]

Thanks it means a lot it's sad he did it on my aunt's porch they are all at the police station they won't let anyone on the property she had a mental break down they called Em's for her it was her only child I'm heartbroken he was the sweetest kid I new he's leaving behind his 1year old son it's so sad he was so young I just can't believe it you know

 

[Abgrundanziehung]

I have no words. I'm sorry to hear that. Did anyone know how badly he was doing before it happened?

 

[Red87]

Yeah his girlfriend was cheating on him constantly and never helped with the baby she was on meth bad he wasn't he was trying hard to take care of the baby but I guess he just lost it I know he called the cops told them he was going to kill him self he shot himself on the phone they heard the gun shots sent the police to my aunt's house he was dead when they got there it breaks heart

 

[Abgrundanziehung]

Yeah his girlfriend was cheating on him constantly and never helped with the baby she was on meth bad he wasn't he was trying hard to take care of the baby but I guess he just lost it I know he called the cops told them he was going to kill him self he shot himself on the phone they heard the gun shots sent the police to my aunt's house he was dead when they got there it breaks heart

Wow. That's so shocking and traumatic on so many levels.

 

[Red87]

Yeah I'm in shock I don't even know what to say about it

 

[less than]

Sorry for your loss. Did you know that he thought about it?

 

[MsMaudlin]

I'm so sorry to hear this, what a terrible shock
❤

 

[Zappfe lover]

Damn... that sounds awful...

Doubt if it's going to help, but at least think that he was probably suffering a lot and managed to find peace.

 

[Red87]

No I didn't know I had not talked to him in about a year I wish I spoken to him more his mom is so heartbroken they told her not to go back to her house tonight because it's a crime seen and the baby's mom got into a fight with her dad they blame her for all the stuff she did to him cops asked her if she wanted the baby she said no and her dad told my aunt to get custody tomorrow because his daughter doesn't deserve the baby his so upset about him dying he loved him and hates his daughter for what she did to him cheating and not caring about the baby or my cousin she only worried about drugs and getting layed they had a big fight at the hospital because she was fake crying I'm so pissed off she is so selfish I hope my cousin is in peace and I hope he knows how loved he was and how much we will miss him his son loved him and now he will never know who he was all we can do is share his life and memories with him
Y'all I'm so worn down I can't even think anymore this world has fucked everything I ever loved this is the reason why I want to ctb because there's so much bad shit always going on that u never find peace every where I turn something bad is happening my husbands death my cousins death my sister losing her kids my brothers in jail my dad is constantly in the hospital I'm always alone and I run constantly to help everyone but know one has ever run to help me I'm so done this world is not worth a breath I breathe there's just so much drama I can only take so much I wish ctb was easier they way I could snap my fingers and be gone in a blink of a eye I wouldn't have to deal with any of it

 

[Sinai Silence]

That is heartbreaking to hear, I wouldn't know what to do in your situation. I hope you and your family are staying strong in such adversity.

The gf sounds like a truly selfish person I hope she learns from her actions but it doesn't seem like she has currently.

I hope your cousin is at peace now.

 

[draw a circle]

Sorry for your loss man... rest in peace for your cousin. If you need somewhere to talk as well we're here for you dude.

 

[KUA]

My cousin killed his self tonight he was only 21 had a one year old son he shot himself I'm so sad he was so young

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope the son gets the lifelong support he deserves

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

This is so sad on so many levels. I feel for your aunt. I feel for his child who is left with an uncaring mother. And I feel for you. My condolences to you for your loss. I hope the coming days bring peace, resolution, and consolation.

 

[Red87]

Thank you all it's just been a really long year

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Horrible to hear. Sounds like his situation was pretty intense and he was completely overwhelmed. He definitely tried his best - I can't imagine living to 21. Hope he's at peace now.

 

[Red87]

I hope so to thank u

 

[so tired or manic]

I'm grateful to hear the mom didn't want custody, so that's some silver lining. I'm sorry it happened.

 

[Soul]

(((Gentle hug for @Red87 and aunt)))

 

[Red87]

Thanks soul I really appreciate it

 

[HappyMstake]

I'm so sorry about the news. This makes me start to think about my loved ones and how they will feel when I inevitably ctb..

 

[falloutcarter13]

Red, I'm so sorry...if you can, try to apply your own feelings about life and leaving it to your poor cousin. And remember, his pain is gone. Its okay to be sad for yourself and for others, but he's found peace. And thank you for sharing, this just highlights how the action we are all here to talk about is *messy* no matter how cleanly its accomplished. So many lives, so many connections...and yet, we hardly ever see or understand how much pain another person is in until they show us in this way. I'm just...so sorry for how you're feeling and for your loss, no matter what you decide for yourself or when, you're still here *now* which means you have to feel the pain and try to deal with it. Here for you, friend