Venting Hopeless

[CyanideSoup]

I feel like I'm about to self destruct. It's been almost 6 months since my last attempt and I promised everyone around me that I would give recovery a proper go. But my therapist refuses to help me, I haven't seen her since August and I can't get hold of her. The doctor said no meds would help me and I made me go from being on 4 meds at once to nothing with no support coming off of them. And okay they didn't make me feel better but id rather feel like a zombie than how I feel right now. I keep looking at SN again. I really don't know what to do.. I don't want to do this anymore.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can't believe how mean your doctors and therapist are being to you.
Hope everything gets better and if you do CTB, always have a well-organized plan.
Wish you the best, pal.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I would first advise finding a new therapist and a new doctor. It sounds like the ones you have are incredibly unprofessional and borderline negligent.

 

[Meditation guide]

You must live where I live where no one gives a damn no matter what you are going through. I've reached out and frantically tried to get help for my health problems and this is simply not possible. One doctor laughed at me and told jokes when I said I can't swallow for example.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

you could try CBT before CTB by getting a new psychologist?
really strange they do not want to help you

 

[CoalmineCanary]

 

[bornfree]

I feel like I'm about to self destruct. It's been almost 6 months since my last attempt and I promised everyone around me that I would give recovery a proper go. But my therapist refuses to help me, I haven't seen her since August and I can't get hold of her. The doctor said no meds would help me and I made me go from being on 4 meds at once to nothing with no support coming off of them. And okay they didn't make me feel better but id rather feel like a zombie than how I feel right now. I keep looking at SN again. I really don't know what to do.. I don't want to do this anymore.

they have failed you. It sounds like they don't recognise just how badly they've failed you.

However if you feel the drugs help versus coming off them makes things worse for you then what reason do they have to force this on you.