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Unsure_about_living

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May 6, 2020
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Feel weirdly scared of just the taste of it. Plan to hold my nose, mouth wash after, and a tiny bit of water if needed.

Got 2 x 25g prepped. Had diazepam though I don't think that has quelled my anxiety at all. And esomeprazole to reduce stomach acid. But no anti-emetics.

I've not eaten today but have had alcohol this evening, so if nothing else this will serve as an experiment to see if you can die from SN after drinking...


I'll update as much as I feel able. If you hear mo updates assume I'm gone. Thanks everyone 💓
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens. Best wishes.
 
Jrmull1993

Jrmull1993

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Jul 13, 2022
753
Some have posted about sucking on an ice cube afterwards to quell the taste.

Wishing you the best with finding your eternal peace.
 
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Nirrend

Nirrend

The important is not how long you live ...
Mar 12, 2022
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I'm sorry mate, Sorry to see that your sorrow lead you to leave too..

Love you <3, I hope you'll find peace
 
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Finding Sirius

Finding Sirius

The brightest lights cast the darkest shadows
Aug 16, 2022
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I hope your journey to the otherside is as painless as possible. Rest well.
 
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Unsure_about_living

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May 6, 2020
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Update: couldn't fucking do it
 
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Jrmull1993

Jrmull1993

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Jul 13, 2022
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Update: couldn't fucking do it
Don't beat yourself up for it. Survival Instinct is unfortunately embedded in our DNA, and you will never know when you'll be able to overcome it.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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I'm sorry you couldn't go through with it But I'm glad you're still with us.
 

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