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I don't want anything to show in a blood test that'll put me in a psych ward.
I also have a previous OD on record and they'd know immediately.
I have had severely treatment resistant depression that has waxed and waned since my young teenage years. When it gets bad, I lose years at a time. I recently got extremely sick, like lost 20 pounds because I couldn't keep food down sick, had surgery, my partner and love of my life whom I live with broke up with me, I have no idea how I'm going to keep my apartment. I have 2 jobs that I'm on the brink of losing from being in the hospital so much. I had been functioning at full throttle while being fucking dead inside. Ruined the relationship with the person I was going to marry because I can't function like a normal human being, have 0 friends who didnt stop giving a shit years ago, and am just done. I am only actively alive because of my parents and sister, whom it would destroy to know I'd taken my own life. Need to find a way for it to be construed as not purposeful.
Odds not good. I've done exactly that and walked away with a headache and some bumps. Granted, I wasn't aiming for unconsciousness so I didn't do it as hard as you possibly could. Even so, I doubt you'd end up in a full-on coma, but you'd likely get a concussion.
no unless maybe you use a hammer that penetrates your skull making contact with you brain'
I'm currently the opposite of physically healthy and frankly being brain dead sounds a lot more enticing than having to face this bullshit every day. Guess ill just jump
I can totally relate, I have been in a wheelchair 37 of my 52 years
My point is that at least you are mentally capable of making the choice to end your life and carrying out a plan to do so. If you wind up mentally handicapped, you may lose the ability to do one or both. It doesn't mean that you are going to be unaware of your situation, just that you may not be able to do anything about it.
