Hi everyone

[victoria91]

I have been lurking on here for well over a year, but never had the guts to post. You all seem so wonderful and I would find myself reassured everytime I came on here :)

I remember being a little girl and wanting to die. I remember hating life and not wanting to be here. I now have 4 wonderful children ( all young ) and these feelings are still very much with me. It doesnt matter what I do , these feelings are always there.

From the outside my life looks pretty wonderful but I hate every part of it. There is no real point to this post apart from to say you all seem genuine and supportive :)

 

[SilviuSDJ]

I now have 4 wonderful children ( all young ) and these feelings are still very much with me. It doesnt matter what I do , these feelings are always there.

Sorry to hear this. It is true that children don't really bring true happiness, that's why so many adults even in with children are depressed.
You should find happiness only in yourself, in your own mind, not in other people, even if you love them, you should love yourself more.

 

[Evermore]

One of my family members has depression and is a single mother to 2 children . I honestly don't know how she does it , I can barely take care of myself let alone anyone else ! I can only begin to imagine how difficult it is to deal with your feelings while raising 4 children . I really hope this site helps you in whatever way you need .

 

[dibbydoo]

I have been lurking on here for well over a year, but never had the guts to post. You all seem so wonderful and I would find myself reassured everytime I came on here :)

I remember being a little girl and wanting to die. I remember hating life and not wanting to be here. I now have 4 wonderful children ( all young ) and these feelings are still very much with me. It doesnt matter what I do , these feelings are always there.

From the outside my life looks pretty wonderful but I hate every part of it. There is no real point to this post apart from to say you all seem genuine and supportive :)

Hey Victoria

Acknowledging that 'these feelings are always there' is a good thing.

Depression, fear, anxiety all gain a foothold in a person's life when it's hidden away, ...drag it out into the light, expose it for what it is & the power is taken away.

At your very core, you are 'pure in spirit' & loved unconditionally!

'Hate' is a strong word, can you be more specific about what you hate about your life?

Big Hugs

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I have been lurking on here for well over a year, but never had the guts to post. You all seem so wonderful and I would find myself reassured everytime I came on here :)

I remember being a little girl and wanting to die. I remember hating life and not wanting to be here. I now have 4 wonderful children ( all young ) and these feelings are still very much with me. It doesnt matter what I do , these feelings are always there.

From the outside my life looks pretty wonderful but I hate every part of it. There is no real point to this post apart from to say you all seem genuine and supportive :)

Hi Victoria, welcome.

Having a life 'perfect' on paper is no guard against such feelings. It's good that you are honest about it, though it won't help those feelings go away.

 

[Lara Francis]

I have been lurking on here for well over a year, but never had the guts to post. You all seem so wonderful and I would find myself reassured everytime I came on here :)

I remember being a little girl and wanting to die. I remember hating life and not wanting to be here. I now have 4 wonderful children ( all young ) and these feelings are still very much with me. It doesnt matter what I do , these feelings are always there.

From the outside my life looks pretty wonderful but I hate every part of it. There is no real point to this post apart from to say you all seem genuine and supportive :)

Wishing you a warm welcome to our community x

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Welcome. I have those feelings too.

 

[Otto]

Hi ,my childhood fucked me up ,I remember wanting to die around the age of seven