here again

[Willow]

It seems like I find my way back here periodically, and then things get better for awhile. But they always get worse again. I'm thinking about killing myself, but I really can't decide. The indecision is huge.
I bought a revolver and some ammo. I wish I could talk this over with someone. But anyone I talk to in real life will want me to go to the hospital. That's not what I want. I just want to be able to think this through.

 

[WornOutLife]

Welcome back!
Well, this might not be real life but you can always talk to me.
I also have many doubts whether to ctb or not.

Hugs and love

 

[awfullife]

Sup Willow. I'm about to pick up a revolver myself. Probly a 45. Anyways feel free to PM if you want to chat. Today would be a good day for me to drive down to the reservoir and put a hole in head. Hope you feel better

 

[Mondsucher]

It's kind of the same for me. During autumn most things were fine and now I can celebrate my first year being suicidal on here :/