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[SpaxeZ]

I'm running out of time I can't live like this everyday is like literal hell for me and worst of all I don't have a sure method. Days ago I learned about shallow water blackout and that gave me so much comfort I was feeling all fine knowing I'm able to end it anytime but then agin realized that's not possible to do in cold freezing water. I don't know what to do. Please someone talk to me

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. We all deserve the option of a reliable, peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, it is cruel how we are denied this and have to resort to unpleasant methods. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are in so much pain. I wish you the best, whatever happens.

 

[dustbiter]

what are you asking from us exactly ;~;? also, did your other thread on this issue not give you a satisfying answer?

 

[cambrai33]

I'm running out of time I can't live like this everyday is like literal hell for me and worst of all I don't have a sure method. Days ago I learned about shallow water blackout and that gave me so much comfort I was feeling all fine knowing I'm able to end it anytime but then agin realized that's not possible to do in cold freezing water. I don't know what to do. Please someone talk to me

What does it mean when you say you are running out of time? Is there a significant date that's important to you for some reason.

Look I get that everything is in a state of flux for you but if you can take a step back and think this through. I don't know if you have asked for help or what the situation is but I can tell you that ctb should be a last resort and is seldom a viable solution when it's rushed.

Some (well me anyway) are able to calm down by thinking and planning ctb carefully, it brings a calmness to a mind that is in conflict with itself, in the meantime I am trying to get help, there is nothing to lose by this.

Try not to do anything impulsive, I can feel how distressed you are, keep talking to us

 

[SpaxeZ]

what are you asking from us exactly ;~;? also, did your other thread on this issue not give you a satisfying answer?

No it didn't. I know it's illegal to recommend methods here.

What does it mean when you say you are running out of time? Is there a significant date that's important to you for some reason.

Look I get that everything is in a state of flux for you but if you can take a step back and think this through. I don't know if you have asked for help or what the situation is but I can tell you that ctb should be a last resort and is seldom a viable solution when it's rushed.

Some (well me anyway) are able to calm down by thinking and planning ctb carefully, it brings a calmness to a mind that is in conflict with itself, in the meantime I am trying to get help, there is nothing to lose by this.

Try not to do anything impulsive, I can feel how distressed you are, keep talking to us

I need to do it somewhere else and by the 10th of January new covid 19 restrictions for travel will be put demanding the 3rd dose of vaccine and that will take me atleast 4 months to be able to get.

 

[cambrai33]

No it didn't. I know it's illegal to recommend methods here.

I need to do it somewhere else and by the 10th of January new covid 19 restrictions for travel will be put demanding the 3rd dose of vaccine and that will take me atleast 4 months to be able to get.

Fair point and I understand why you have that deadline in your mind. I will say this though, rushing a ctb can often lead to failure but I know you know that already.

What happens if you wait a few more months?

 

[SpaxeZ]

Fair point and I understand why you have that deadline in your mind. I will say this though, rushing a ctb can often lead to failure but I know you know that already.

What happens if you wait a few more months?

I have a major exam and I can't study anything. If I fail that my parents would realize and it would be a disaster and even if I pass that exam they need to spend a lot of money applying me for universirty. I don't want to waste their money anymore because I know I'm going to ctb in the end. So I've just got less than a week to do it..

 

[cambrai33]

I have a major exam and I can't study anything. If I fail that my parents would realize and it would be a disaster and even if I pass that exam they need to spend a lot of money applying me for universirty. I don't want to waste their money anymore because I know I'm going to ctb in the end. So I've just got less than a week to do it..

Ok

Failing an exam is shit but please believe me when I say in the grand scheme of life that it's not a disaster, though I know that's how it will feel for you at the time.

You don't have to say but why do you know you will ctb in the end, you seem young and have a future ahead of you. Have you asked for help or is this something you have been dealing with by yourself?

 

[SpaxeZ]

Ok

Failing an exam is shit but please believe me when I say in the grand scheme of life that it's not a disaster, though I know that's how it will feel for you at the time.

You don't have to say but why do you know you will ctb in the end, you seem young and have a future ahead of you. Have you asked for help or is this something you have been dealing with by yourself?

Sorry you can check my othe post I got some illness affecting my social life and there's no cure. Yeah agree failing the exam is better than failing my suicide attempt

 

[cambrai33]

Sorry you can check my othe post I got some illness affecting my social life and there's no cure. Yeah agree failing the exam is better than failing my suicide attempt

Ok, I read it and I don't have any answers to it at all, I can see how much it affects you, I can only say a couple of things:

Medicine evolves and it might not always be this way
Don't rush into things, read through this forum, lots of posts where people rushed and it didn't end as planned