help me

[SadGirl]

I'm trying to try ctb today, but I don't want to die, I feel trapped in this world yet. I don't think I'm properly prepared. And if I try and go to the emergency room, they'll probably check me into a psychiatric clinic, and I don't want that. I do not know what to do. Yesterday I was anxious and very angry, today with horrible sadness.

 

[russlinjimmies]

I wouldn't try anything if you aren't actually ready. Do you have anyone you can reach out to and talk for a bit? You don't have to mention specifically what's on your mind but maybe just a conversation to take your mind off of it might help.

 

[x_LittleAmy_x]

I'm trying to try ctb today, but I don't want to die, I feel trapped in this world yet. I don't think I'm properly prepared. And if I try and go to the emergency room, they'll probably check me into a psychiatric clinic, and I don't want that. I do not know what to do. Yesterday I was anxious and very angry, today with horrible sadness.

If you need someone to reach out and talk to, my PMs are open for you.

 

[WornOutLife]

It seems you're still not ready to ctb. I'm not either.
The best you can do is try to calm down and deal with life.
Start from baby steps to giant strides.

For instance, take a shower everyday, clean your room, go for a walk, etc.

We gotta understand that thinking about CTB 24/7 is mentally unhealthy because it makes our depression and anxiety much worse!

Easier said than done but..I'm really trying to deal with this goddamn life.