Help a girl out

[NyxCascade]

HEY EVERYBODY
I hope everyone is doing fabulous on this lovely Friday, ive been doing absolutely nothing today, i got 2 shifts at my jobs tomorrow but damn im feeling reckless today,
My co worker died yesterday night, she got into a car crash and its left me feeling some kind of way like damn.
People do actually die and shes gone now, wont ever hear her voice again or see her.
Im just like oh my god ill do whatever the actual fuck i want then like fuck life anyways
Nothing even fucking matters you know?
So either I can drink til i get fucked up BUT that is boring cause ill just be drinking alone in my bedroom like a loser so maybe just maybe I should go like to somewhere 3 hours away and then spend all night trying to get home it sounds fun.
GIVE ME SOME IDEAS.

 

[TBONTB]

I'm sorry you lost your co-worker and that it's hitting you hard. I can't imagine how you sit with thst

I don't really have ideas. Do you have any other co-workers you could hang with either online or in a cafe? Just to remember your coworker together?

 

[NyxCascade]

Yeah I have a lot of other co workers who I get along with but Im not sure itll feel the same anymore, I have work tomorrow and Im not really sure I can go.
I was thinking of just getting drunk to get my mind off of it but got no one to drink with currently, my friends are busy with their own lives.

 

[elemental_rain]

I also lost a coworker earlier in the year and it has affected me deeply.

Honestly going to the funeral helped and talking about them and remembering them made me freak out less. I definitely spiralled somewhat, and got very drunk/high to forget but it didnt help. He was a great guy and I still miss him.

I hope you can find your own way to deal with/process whats happened so you can move forward. If you want to of course.