Crow_88
Experienced
- Dec 30, 2024
- 277
It's the apathy.
I've been so passionate in life.
But it's always up and down.
On the ups I couldn't fail or so I thought.
And they would lead to the downs.
I just never cared about a career.
And oh.
Terrible things have happened to me.
A horrific family.
Still, I'm the one holding this pain.
And the one that has to leave before my time.
Every day I feel like something terrible is coming.
The things I've done.
And positions I've been in.
I can't even talk about it; I'm so ashamed.
I've fallen out of society twice. Twice!
And I mean completely out.
Completely disconnected.
CTB is the only possible path.
Everything else is hopeless.
I know there is more after this life.
And by more I mean it's over.
That I can handle.
I have no loved ones.
I sabotaged myself by chasing base pleasure.
There is a timeline on all things.
Hell is real.
And it is ego.
I've been so passionate in life.
But it's always up and down.
On the ups I couldn't fail or so I thought.
And they would lead to the downs.
I just never cared about a career.
And oh.
Terrible things have happened to me.
A horrific family.
Still, I'm the one holding this pain.
And the one that has to leave before my time.
Every day I feel like something terrible is coming.
The things I've done.
And positions I've been in.
I can't even talk about it; I'm so ashamed.
I've fallen out of society twice. Twice!
And I mean completely out.
Completely disconnected.
CTB is the only possible path.
Everything else is hopeless.
I know there is more after this life.
And by more I mean it's over.
That I can handle.
I have no loved ones.
I sabotaged myself by chasing base pleasure.
There is a timeline on all things.
Hell is real.
And it is ego.
