purplemoon
I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
- Sep 22, 2019
- 394
I was wondering if anyone else in here could please talk to me a little bit about how to not completely break down on the only family I have left is turning out to be just as abusive as the others? Or almost as devastating, my sister is being excessively cruel multiple times, and she's the only one I have left. Everyone else is either physically abusive and violent or their rich snobs the abandoned me to die in the streets and careless literally. I don't understand the cruelty when I'm not cruel to them. My sister said she knows she's a bitch and that's what works for her and it's A matter of she's tired of worrying about other people's needs. If I have emotions then she calls emotional blackmail if I cried. If I try to express myself calmly without crying then it's something else, and then she says something else critical. She's been like this my whole life but she had gotten better for a while and now she's going back to really cruel like she used to be which is why I disowned her for 10 years in the first place. Every single thing I say that every single thing I do is always wrong. Nothing I do or say is ever good enough. Then she gets sarcastic and hurtful on purpose. Then she calls herself a compassionate person. She's done some nice things but then she throws in horrifyingly cruel comments that make me cry. She's being just like our father, he would call himself an asshole and admitted and say that's just the way he is. He would do horrible damage to us and justify it away, or say that we are the ones to upset him and he can't help it. She sounded just like her father and it's breaking my heart
