Venting Hear my train is coming

[Ange_Fatigue]

Juste checked my Sn order status, it s about to be shipped.
I am visiting my sister s family to spend some time with my dear nephew. I am devastated to leave him, and feeling sad because I can t tell him I ll soon leave forever

I should go in february for another MRI, and wait for another botched surgery. I am just so tired after 15 years of sharp suffering.

What s break my heart is that I can t openly talk about suicide with my family, only one friend of mine understand me.
I ll die alone. I prefer keeping money for funeral fee rather than another surgery. I am not particularly sad to die soon because my life is now such a burden.
I try to enjoy those last moments but I feel so empty.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry for what you endured in your life. You can openly talk about all your feelings - suicidal or not - in this site and you will not be alone. I hope things getter for you :)

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Sorry, please talk and vent if you need someone to listen, there are here, you won't be alone on the board.

 

[departing]

You can use this site to vent. Nobody here will judge you and it can be helpful.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

I'm sorry for what you've had to go through. We're here for you if you need anyone to talk to

 

[Ghost2211]

We are here for you. Some things are better not discussed with people it will directly effect.