Heading to the woods rn, hopefully I get the courage

[Exhausted546]

Its kinda cold, I'm really anxious instead of calm. I'll try to go somewhere that's not too isolated but not too visible either. It's a regional park Is there any way to schedule a text to family? A text that can be cancelled if I don't end up doing it? (Better than being sent to psych ward) It's a re

Planning to use this thread to make my set up after I find a proper tree in 15sh minutes. It' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/trees-to-use-for-hanging-from-a-tree-expert.76256/

If the knots are too complicated to pull off, I'll go with the arbor knot on the tree

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

I'm not sure if scheduled texts are possible. What phone do you have? Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find peace friend.

 

[Exhausted546]

Its kinda cold, I'm really anxious instead of calm. I'll try to go somewhere that's not too isolated but not too visible either. It's a regional park Is there any way to schedule a text to family? A text that can be cancelled if I don't end up doing it? (Better than being sent to psych ward) It's a re

Planning to use this thread to make my set up after I find a proper tree in 15sh minutes. It' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/trees-to-use-for-hanging-from-a-tree-expert.76256/

If the knots are too complicated to pull off, I'll go with the arbor knot on the tree

There are still a lot of people around, trees seem either way to tall or way too young and fragile so far

 

[A_Lost_Feeling]

It can be done on iphone if you have the latest ios version (click the + then "send later') although this is for imessage only , i think it can be done on andriod by typing the message and clicking the clock? although don't quote me on that. alternatively you can use gmail to send a scheduled email. I must admit this is something I would trial in advance to not risk accidentally sending the message before your ready for it to be sent

 

[Exhausted546]

It can be done on iphone if you have the latest ios version (click the + then "send later') although this is for imessage only , i think it can be done on andriod by typing the message and clicking the clock? although don't quote me on that. alternatively you can use gmail to send a scheduled email. I must admit this is something I would trial in advance to not risk accidentally sending the message before your ready for it to be sent

I have a pixel 9

Every treevos tall around here
I wonder if semi-fallen trees would work?

 

[A_Lost_Feeling]

looks like a beautiful place, from a quick search i have found this, please be careful as it appears you have to press and hold the send button, maybe try just a random word first if your message is likely to be what i'm imagining it may be, you don't want to accidentally send your message instantly when trying to figure it out

Important: With Android 7.0 and up, you can schedule messages to send on phones. If your phone isn't connected to Wi-Fi or data at the scheduled time, your message is sent when your device reconnects.

1. Open Google Messages
   
   .
2. Open a conversation.
3. Enter your message.
4. Touch and hold Send
   
   .
5. Choose from the suggestions.
   • Optional: If you choose your own date and time, a calendar opens. After you pick a date, a clock opens so you can pick a time. Tap Next.
6. Tap Send
   
   .

 

[Exhausted546]

I should have bought alcohol

 

[dewasrite]

I hope you find peace

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I should have bought alcohol

It's oaky to abort if things don't feel right. Best to you either way.

 

[Exhausted546]

My feet hurt from trying to find a suitable tree, can't barely feel my hands anymore, should have brought gloves
The only good trees are within 4 meters of the trail. As I was pulling the rope out, 2 couples passed. This isn't as easy as I thought. The second best option are the collapsed trees off the path

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[dalemar]

I whish you all the best, whatever you decide!

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[timeisrunning]

Are you still with us?

 

[sweetdrowning]

I hope you found peace.

 

[Exhausted546]

Still alive.

I started listening to music for the last time as I was looking for suitable trees and to put myself in the proper mood, couldn't find a tree on that trail but before trying another trail,I decided to hit the nearby liquor store,warm up,and try another trail.

I was now drunk, walking on a closed trail, but on the "sad song" playlist, a catchy song came up and I started dancing my life off while walking to my death (there's about 2 things i have a natural talent for, dancing is one of them), I put it on repeat and kept dancing to it while looking for a tree, was having a great time throwing the smoothest moves alone in the woods at night.



I eventually found a tree that was suitable, took the rope out. Started attaching it but I kept thinking to myself how it's truly a waste that I'm about to end it all,I love dancing way too much despite barely doing it these past years

My set up was almost ready then a song came up that made me throw moves so smooth my drunk brain thought to itself "am I really gonna waste all these cool dance moves?! Really?! Give life another chance! Imagine how cool you'd be throwing these moves once your situation gets better!" (I cringe in retrospect, what a dumb reason to not rope yourself)

But yeah, I undid my set up, walked back extremely drunk and happy,dancing my ass off,determined to give life another try and having a surge of motivation.

That delusional motivation faded when I woke up,the only thing remaining were my sore feet but I acted on the promise I made with my drunk-self and decided to give life a last shot.

Alcohol and sad music were supposed to help me ctb with ease, they ended up having the opposite effect.

Honestly my situation isn't fixed at all, I'm just willing to endure it longer in hope things get better. If they don't I'll ctb, I'll avoid music and alcohol when I do it tho