Venting He said “[he] think[s] killing [him]self is acceptable”

[Concorde]

One of the two people I feel most strongly about telling before I leave appeared to give me an in earlier today. He was complaining about a bunch of things but then added

With this latest situation I think killing myself is acceptable

and I felt free to tell him what's on my mind. I said

Same.

Really.

I have had enough. I had some good times. But mostly not.

It always gets a little better.

Then a lot worse.

I see a pattern. And health only gets worse from here.

I thought it was a watershed moment. But he got on a plane and mentioned only adjacent stuff when he landed.

He's one of the two people I feel guilty about because I bought only enough supplies for one person's bus fare.

He has long been the person I expected to take the same bus as me in the unlikely event we both wanted to together (but due to fear, each time one of us was ready, the other was absolutely not).

I am moderately fond of the fact that I can now feel like I didn't keep it a complete secret. I'm very fond of feeling a whole lot less burdened by just writing this post.

 

[Dr.Duck]

That's must be really nice knowing you feel the same way. That you aren't alone outside of sasu. if you do take the bus together it's nice being with someone for the end.