What was disrespectful was telling members to "stfu" and asking if you can kill them, and saying you will channel your feelings "in torture."
I am sorry that you found people's replies unhelpful. I understand it is frustrating when feedback is unhelpful and reiterating what you already know, I'm sorry for that. However, you specifically asked for advice in your thread, which is why members made suggestions. No-one was disrespectful towards you or unreasonable in their responses.
Having intrusive homicidal feelings is not the issue in itself. I have OCD personally and can truly appreciate how difficult having these thoughts can be. I am truly sorry you are having these urges. It is the way you are speaking to members that is the issue.
I am locking this thread. You are still welcome to use your first "Having the urge to kill" thread on this topic and speak about your situation further, as long as you do not insult other members or ask about killing members of the forum like before. Thank you.