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GhostCat25

GhostCat25

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Jan 5, 2026
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Spring is here and I walked along the waterfront today and caught the sun rays on my face. It was so calming and beautiful. I almost forgot how that has always been one of my favorite things to do.

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That feeling reminded me of the scenery of this country I visited. It's 2-3 hours away from where I live.

Then a thought sprung up on me; "I would like to take in the beauty of nature as my last sights on Earth, and feel all the sensations as the vast mother nature envelopes my soul before coming "home". A homecoming that is familiar and intimate."

I'll probably visit the nature, swim, camp a few days and come back to the hotel for my finality. As ironic as that is, part of me wants to experience what it's like to be alive before I eternally rest... I see this a lot in people's final moments.

The juxtaposition to manifest and live such complexity makes us "human"; the inevitability of ouroboros.

My questions are:
- Would you ctb in a beautiful/favorite country? If so, where and how? (If you'd like to chime in and share, ofc)
- As for logistics, is there any repercussions for ctb in a foreign land? Like your family having to pay transport fees for your body?

All in all, I hope the sun rays where you are is a gentle as the one I felt today. 😊☀️🌄🌅🌤️
 
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kk13

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Feb 2, 2026
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yes, i want to die surrounded by nature. not sure which country tho. maybe in italy, or brazil. idk how tho but i think bleeding out would be peaceful.
 
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GhostCat25

GhostCat25

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Jan 5, 2026
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yes, i want to die surrounded by nature. not sure which country tho. maybe in italy, or brazil. idk how tho but i think bleeding out would be peaceful.
I can understand your yearning for Italy bc I've backpacked to Italy before and it's breathtaking. I never felt so alive in a country and it's definitely one of my favorite destination. It awakened so many sensations in me.

If you can, you should definitely visit. 😊
 
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yotaka

明日にはすべてが終るとして
Jan 29, 2026
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I wish I could go back to Japan and end things there. It's such a beautiful place. That's just a dream, though. I don't think it could realistically happen.
 
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locketofroses

locketofroses

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Feb 22, 2025
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Yes! I've had my heart set on this idea for years, though the locations have varied. I've always wanted to be away from my family when I do it. I don't want to die being trapped as I was in life. I want to die in nature somewhere, finally free in more ways than one. I've considered a lot of places, but I think I've finally settled on Germany.

My dream would be to book a trip for a week, get any bucket list tourist items done, and then do it on the last day.
 
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GhostCat25

GhostCat25

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Jan 5, 2026
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Yes! I've had my heart set on this idea for years, though the locations have varied. I've always wanted to be away from my family when I do it. I don't want to die being trapped as I was in life. I want to die in nature somewhere, finally free in more ways than one. I've considered a lot of places, but I think I've finally settled on Germany.

My dream would be to book a trip for a week, get any bucket list tourist items done, and then do it on the last day.
I can understand the need to be as far away from family as possible, hence why I'm planning to do it abroad. There's also let's questioning since they know you're on vacation. But we'll see, since it's a lot of planning and my mental capacity is limited.

I understand your yearning for nature, bc nature is very soothing for the soul while I'm still here. So the thought of exploring it one last time makes the departure feels even more calming and peaceful.

Germany is really beautiful during spring and summer. I can only imagine the solace you would feel in such beauty 😊 Thank you so much for sharing.
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Student
May 4, 2025
184
CTB abroad in someplace like Japan would be nice, but my plans are more achievable. I plan to drive to a rest stop, black out my windows, and die laying down in my car. Eventually someone will probably report it, the police will get involved, and they'll discover my body. Either that or some carjacker who will be in for quite the surprise. My rationale for a rest stop is because I've stopped at them so many times during my travels, they're a nice place to be, and the irony of dying at a "rest" stop would be quite funny.
 
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purpp37

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Oct 28, 2025
47
I used to… Slovakia… I won't say anymore
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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I used to want to ctb in Switzerland, but I will do it in my home country. My health is too broken for a long distance travel or mountain climbing.
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