Discussion Have you lost relatives or friends to suicide?

[GummyBear!>.<]

Basically the question in the title, if you did, how do you feel about it? I lost a parent to suicide when I was a child and though I miss them a lot and are still grieving and I feel and I KNOW everything would be so much better rn if they were here I don't feel angry at them or think they are guilty or selfish for dying
Ive also lost multiple friends to suicide and feel the same way

 

[RoseGirl]

my girlfriend died last week. I was crying and screaming for hours till medicated.
I really miss her.

 

[offbalance]

yeah my ex boyfriend CTB with a shotgun it was totally unexpected…

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I lost a cousin who partial hanged. Another cousin may have been a suicide (OD), but will never know. I did have an older friend/acquaintance who blew his brains out when I was much younger. Had an ex-coworker kill himself, too, after bad medical news, at least that's the reason I heard, anyway. And certainly there have been several people here on SaSu that I've gotten to know, and although we never met in person, I still consider them friends, especially the ones I've had extensive conversations with.

 

[whywere]

Great aunt used a shotgun.

Walter

 

[flip_bug]

Sorry for your loss. I had a friend complete suicide by heroin overdose. I miss him a lot. There was nobody like him. I found out by messaging people on his friends list.

 

[wishicould33]

My younger stepbrother hung himself last year. It was absolutely horrible. Moreso for my dad and my stepmom than me because I didn't know him very well. We're very far apart in age so didn't grow up together. But no one suspected anything. I have had a lot of mixed feelings about it, ranging from anger to sadness to jealousy

 

[davidtorez]

My mother hung herself downstairs and my brother and boyfriend found her in the morning. She was 61 at the time

 

[gottacheckout]

One brother killed himself by alcohol, talk about a drawn out suicide
Another brother cocaine
Sister stole my dad's morphine
Great uncle drank battery acid
A couple friends by shotgun
One friend handgun
And my Dad did death with dignity

 

[copioushopelessness]

Basically the question in the title, if you did, how do you feel about it? I lost a parent to suicide when I was a child and though I miss them a lot and are still grieving and I feel and I KNOW everything would be so much better rn if they were here I don't feel angry at them or think they are guilty or selfish for dying
Ive also lost multiple friends to suicide and feel the same way

I lost my best friend to suicide and a few others. I haven't been ok since.

 

[Parnate]

Three cousins on mother's side. I feel envious of them. Wish I had that courage to just end it.

 

[that_miqo'te]

Relative I didn't know existed until she died. She was so much like me but was abandoned by my entire family and I'm mad I didn't know about her to offer what little help I could've. I'll probably follow her sooner or later anyway. Maybe we can finally meet then

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

I lost 10 people in my life to suicide.... 8 from the last 2 years ...
I lost a boyfriend last year and I lost a girlfriend last week.
I also lost a friend last week.

You don't ever just move on from it , you carry it and it only gets worse.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Nobody in my personal life, but online, I've lost some people I've communicated with. It's a strange feeling. I suppose it's harder to grasp that the person is gone when you've never met them face-to-face, only through a screen.

 

[Goth_tt_B]

My best friend/boyfriend ctb 4 years ago. I attempted a few times before meeting him. It's one of the things we bonded over.
But now that he's gone, I'm too scared to die even though I want to more than I did any other time I've attempted. I'm scared that if there is an afterlife of any sort, I won't be with him..

 

[Tiny Little Tree]

wow it was hard reading all those, I'm so sorry

I've never had even a single one. I guess the closest was a friend from uni, she was nice but we weren't that close. Was a shock when I heard but due to luck she didn't go through with it. She has talked about it since and seems to have made a full recovery, happy for her.

 

[ManOfTheYear]

My childhood best friend ended his life after attempting to rape me for the second time. My retaliation is what lead him to ending his life.