I certainly don't belong in this horrific reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering and I'd never wish to exist either, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence that just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed, to me existence truly is the problem. I personally see human existence as an abomination with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I only wish for non-existence where all is finally forgotten.