That's honestly one if the main reasons I don't really want to get close to people here. Also because I know I would put my feelings above theirs. I know they came here because they wish to die and so did I, but I dont think I could handle knowing that they are going to kill themselves and that I shouldn't do anything about it. Even if I understand what it's like to be suicidal, I still don't think I could just not do anything. I'm selfish enough to ask them not to do it because I'd miss them, and because I'd feel like their blood is on my hands if I don't try to stop them. I should be happy for them, or at least neutral about it, but I just couldn't, so I'd rather not get into their plans.
I feel like there's such a big difference between knowing a stranger is going to die vs a friend. I mean, it would be pointless to even try to stop strangers from dying. Someone who's been suicidal for years, spent probably months or even years researching suicide methods, got everything they need for their method and planned everything is not going to listen to me, a stranger on the internet. To be fair, I'm pretty neutral about them dying. I can't say I'm happy for them, I'm just not specifically bothered by this. Someone I've never spoken to is barely more than a bot to me. It's their business what they do with their life. But with a friend I know I couldn't let them die. I'm selfish and I know it, so I'd rather stay out of their business instead of doing exactly what pretty much everyone is doing to them already, trying to keep them alive without even trying to fix whatever makes them suffer.
